So the only place you can discuss it is online. I suppose you're insinuating that you do carry out violence in person. The same violence that you speak about. No. You write stories and record voice clips online. You don't actually do the things you fantasize about and dream of. The realm where they exist is only online. That's how you're stuck. If that isn't clear enough maybe someone else can explain it better. I really don't know how else to word it in order for you to understand.
i give you the victim vibe? care to elaborate?
so..your father abandoned you at how many months old?
your mother hated you and made it known.
you say you were a victim of a tough abusive childhood.
your daughter thinks you're a shitty mother.
your boyfriend pushed you down the stairs and most likely got physical with you on multiple occasions.
and you get made fun of online more than anyone i've witnessed, on multiple forums with personal memes created.
you are a victim in every sense of the word.