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There was abuse in the home as far as back as I can remember. I remember as a toddler watching my mother get the shit beat out of her by my brother's father and my mother screaming at me to grab my brother and go to the lady upstairs who used to babysit us.

My brother seems pretty normal, aside from the fact that he has trouble trusting people. He's married with a kid and they seem happy together. He's not like me. I don't trust people either, but I've always been cold and distant towards our mother, where as my brother was clingy and affectionate. I'm not affectionate at all and never have been.

I don't think it's really affected my parenting style that much. I don't like kids and I really don't like being a parent, but I do what I have to to raise my daughter.

My daughter thinks I was abusive and neglectful when she was little and I know I was to some degree, but not always intentionally. I just had a very bad temper and I didn't like spending time with her.

I'm sorry to hear that.

No point in being sorry. Shit happens. Life goes on.

"You only live once" makes it seem unfortunate though. You can't really change what happened, and your life seems to be you fighting boredom even more than I'm stuck doing.

I suppose it explains your disregard for the past. I mean, what do you really have to look back on fondly?

 I don't care about the past. It's history. I live in the here and now. What happens now is all that matters.

 Yep, this is very true. Same as my case.

You know, I think you and Raven have a lot in common. Children become detached when they are faced with parental abuse. I think both of you would have turned out without these problems in a normal environment...

That's possible, though I can only speak for myself. I have no idea who Raven is or her situation. I can't honestly say whether or not I would have turned out differently had there been no abuse because I feel like I've been the way I am my entire life.

I was an unemotional and non-affectionate child before I even started kindergarten. My brother and I pretty much went through the same thing, yet he experiences normal emotions and has always been affectionate.

My mother told me once that, when my brother and I were little, she could leave me with anyone and it never bothered me, but my brother would cry and become clingy. He obviously experienced anxiety, where as I never did.

I think the only thing that would probably change if I had never been abused would be the amount of aggression I feel at times. Everything else would be the same.

 raven is the one talking to you. why do you believe what the whore tells you?

 What??