i don't need you to discuss it with me..i have an idea
You're defending your fantasies in the first sentences of this whole topic. You expressed your violent interests (which come across as fantasy a lot of the time, call it semantics or whatever but it's true) and were banned and called a sick fuck because of them.
Also, you say you're happy with who you are but that doesn't go along with wishing to change your urges regardless of the reason.
I wasn't really defending my fantasies. I just don't understand how people can accuse me of being a sick fuck and yet, they're the ones advocating violence by allowing it to be encouraged in society via the media. And yet I'm the sick fuck?
Being discontent with one aspect of myself does not mean that I don't like the other aspects that define me as a person. There's more to me than just my homicidal urges.
Not that I don't believe you, but like what?
I asked some questions on page one of this topic if you can't think of anything that hasn't been said as a part of the "facade" people believe you brandish.
Edit: BDSM can be a good outlet for urges like that, but I am arguably biased.
We're just going to disagree on this. I see you as making excuses for yourself and your behavior based on whatever you can grasp. Advocating violence? Violence has always been a part of human existance and commonly part of entertainment. I'm not sure if you can call violent ancient activities media.
I agree, there is more to you than urges but you make a sweeping statement that you are happy with who you are as a whole. By admitting you aren't happy with this one aspect then that shows you aren't as sure of yourself as you'd like to believe.
I missed the questions you asked on page one. I didn't notice your post before. I'll answer them now.
What's your house like? Is it well kept, or is it messy?
Messy at the moment. Though, not extremely messy.
How's the weather where you are?
Sunny and windy. Cold.
What's your favorite food?
I don't have any particular favorites. I hate cooking.
What's your favorite season, and why?
Autumn, because the weather is usually neither too hot nor cold in that season.
Do you enjoy any games, be them board games, video games, mind games that don't involve torture?
I enjoy all kinds of games, especially mind games. But aside from that, I like playing Monopoly with my daughter sometimes and UNO. On the computer, I like playing the Sims 3 and mmorpgs.
Do you have any miscelanious hobbies?
I like working on cars and motorcyles occasionally and I like building things out of wood.
Do you fantasize things that don't have to do with wealth, power, or notoriety?
Yes, sex.
How are conversations you have with people in real life, more noting examples as opposed to a simple description of being "less open about this side of me in real life than online"?
In real life, people I know, including my family, usually talk about boring shit that doesn't interest me, like what's happening in their lives. Rarely do they ever bother to ask me what's happening in mine.
What arguably trivial information that'd show you as less two-dimensional could you provide us to show you're more than just "demon", but a person behind a keyboard who lives a life people could relate to?
I don't care if people can relate to me or not. I just get sick of people telling me what they think I am or what I should be. All my life I've had to deal with that shit and it gets annoying.
by Thrill Kill
If a prostitue gets into a car with a stranger and is raped and murdered as a result, do you agree that she deserved it for putting herself in that situation, knowing she could be raped or murdered?
this is a big no-no. If someone rapes your daughter, they deserve to die. If someone kills a loving one, they deserve to die. But a prostitute is doing that because of really fucked up reasons. No one wants a life like that.
I truly admire killers and one of the big questions in my life is if I'll be able to go through it without going through (as in killing someone). But killers who prey on victims of opportunity (people in a high-risk group, such as working girls, homeless people, etc) are scum. They definitely deserve to be killed.
This is the only thing that is concrete within me and there's not a chance I'll think a bit different.
The other things you talk about are more complex, I'll think about it and get back to you