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Slay said: 

holmes said: 

Slay said: 

Sintetika said: 

 While I may not believe in the accuracy of an online test, and I am not one to self-diagnose, from my understanding, these scores would suggest tendencies of a covert schizoid or what? I'm just curious as to what your take on it would be. I know Trypt used the term to describe me in the past, when I first came on SC through you and Trypt. 

I'll tell you my thoughts when I get some time. Just wanted to point out this isn't an online test, really, It's illegal for it to be online. It's a tool used to measure psychopathology, supposed to only be given and interpreted by professionals. I was given this test in jail as part of a risk assessment. 

 

Why would anyone answer these questions truthfully when in custody? That's just asking for trouble.

 

 I didn't, that's why I was able to remain in the program I was in. 

 That's so funny. Nobody answers this shit truthfully. Even when you are paying for it. :D

holmes said: 

Slay said: 

holmes said: 

Slay said: 

Sintetika said: 

 While I may not believe in the accuracy of an online test, and I am not one to self-diagnose, from my understanding, these scores would suggest tendencies of a covert schizoid or what? I'm just curious as to what your take on it would be. I know Trypt used the term to describe me in the past, when I first came on SC through you and Trypt. 

I'll tell you my thoughts when I get some time. Just wanted to point out this isn't an online test, really, It's illegal for it to be online. It's a tool used to measure psychopathology, supposed to only be given and interpreted by professionals. I was given this test in jail as part of a risk assessment. 

 

Why would anyone answer these questions truthfully when in custody? That's just asking for trouble.

 

 I didn't, that's why I was able to remain in the program I was in. 

 That's so funny. Nobody answers this shit truthfully. Even when you are paying for it. :D

 

 It has several scales to detect lying and infrequency, so you have to be smart about it. You can't come off as a saint in the test and your criminal history states otherwise. I still had marked areas for antisocial behavior, but severely downplayed. 

you're smarter than i remember slay. prison did u good huh

Sintetika said: 

 

                                                                                                                                              

                                                                 

 While I may not believe in the accuracy of an online test, and I am not one to self-diagnose, from my understanding, these scores would suggest tendencies of a covert schizoid or what? I'm just curious as to what your take on it would be. I know Trypt used the term to describe me in the past, when I first came on SC through you and Trypt. 


I don't know what I am, and it's not something I actively seek to discover, I just found the test itself interesting with the questions it was asking. 

My friends are ones that view me as a psychopath, but obviously I wouldn't paint it like that. The idea of masked depression fits with a theory of mine that I could sub-consciously be suffering from it. Though it's strange because, I would consider myself relaxed, and driven, despite not making progress on my reading and learning side, I do workout and I enjoy it. I have grand aspirations for my future that I seek to achieve even if it means sacrifice. 

I don't think I'm necessarily shy or anxious, I am reserved. I can meet new people and speak to them, I just typically don't. I have approached people and made conversation before. In regards to violence, it's mostly fantasizing of violence. I have beaten my brother up before. The last episode of violence was only a few days ago when one of my dogs was attacking the other so I started beating it, picked it up and chucked it outside. 

I would say that overtime my tolerance of my family is decaying, I have homicidal thoughts, but I don't plan on acting them on, in regards to suicidal thoughts. I don't hate myself, I have critiques, but I seek to improve myself, I don't believe myself to be inherently bad, and I'd say the only thing suicidal would be either my sacrifice and martyrdom, or if somehow all options for my future fail and I am left with nothing but boredom. 

I'd say you lean towards having a schizoid orientation which would be supported by your self-reported fantasizing,
familial discord(Which is indicative of any psychopathology. In this case, an unloving, unsupportive home could have led to the social and emotional alienation. Schizoids were forced to "grow up" quick and learn early on they can only rely on themselves).

As for psychopathy, your elevated scores on aggressiveness and explosive behavior are indirectly correlated, whereas family discord is directly correlated, but doesn't mean anything by itself, which is what your scores show. You don't tick off any main scales of psychopathy, and don't elevate any antisocial scales. So, calling you one would be pretty far-fetched.

As for having homicidal ideation, I'd have to know what the reasons for that is to say anything about it. Are they
connected to feelings of anger? Are they related to being in control and feeling powerful or having fame?(This would make more sense with your scores on aggression, which include a sense of grandiosity and desire to control). Why'd you beat up your brother?

I'd say covert schizoid or what I'd refer to high-functioning schizoid makes a lot of sense. I'm willing your relationship attachment style leans towards dismissing-avoidant. 

Slay said: 

Sintetika said: 

 

                                                                                                                                              

                                                                 

 While I may not believe in the accuracy of an online test, and I am not one to self-diagnose, from my understanding, these scores would suggest tendencies of a covert schizoid or what? I'm just curious as to what your take on it would be. I know Trypt used the term to describe me in the past, when I first came on SC through you and Trypt. 


I don't know what I am, and it's not something I actively seek to discover, I just found the test itself interesting with the questions it was asking. 

My friends are ones that view me as a psychopath, but obviously I wouldn't paint it like that. The idea of masked depression fits with a theory of mine that I could sub-consciously be suffering from it. Though it's strange because, I would consider myself relaxed, and driven, despite not making progress on my reading and learning side, I do workout and I enjoy it. I have grand aspirations for my future that I seek to achieve even if it means sacrifice. 

I don't think I'm necessarily shy or anxious, I am reserved. I can meet new people and speak to them, I just typically don't. I have approached people and made conversation before. In regards to violence, it's mostly fantasizing of violence. I have beaten my brother up before. The last episode of violence was only a few days ago when one of my dogs was attacking the other so I started beating it, picked it up and chucked it outside. 

I would say that overtime my tolerance of my family is decaying, I have homicidal thoughts, but I don't plan on acting them on, in regards to suicidal thoughts. I don't hate myself, I have critiques, but I seek to improve myself, I don't believe myself to be inherently bad, and I'd say the only thing suicidal would be either my sacrifice and martyrdom, or if somehow all options for my future fail and I am left with nothing but boredom. 

 

I'd say you lean towards having a schizoid orientation which would be supported by your self-reported fantasizing,
familial discord(Which is indicative of any psychopathology. In this case, an unloving, unsupportive home could have led to the social and emotional alienation. Schizoids were forced to "grow up" quick and learn early on they can only rely on themselves).

As for psychopathy, your elevated scores on aggressiveness and explosive behavior are indirectly correlated, whereas family discord is directly correlated, but doesn't mean anything by itself, which is what your scores show. You don't tick off any main scales of psychopathy, and don't elevate any antisocial scales. So, calling you one would be pretty far-fetched.

As for having homicidal ideation, I'd have to know what the reasons for that is to say anything about it. Are they
connected to feelings of anger? Are they related to being in control and feeling powerful or having fame?(This would make more sense with your scores on aggression, which include a sense of grandiosity and desire to control). Why'd you beat up your brother?

I'd say covert schizoid or what I'd refer to high-functioning schizoid makes a lot of sense. I'm willing your relationship attachment style leans towards dismissing-avoidant. 

 Well, in other cases, I would refer to it being in control and feeling power. In regards to my brother, it was purely just anger in that moment, same with my dog, my family was freaking out and screaming for me to come, and so from them annoying me by freaking out like idiots, I started beating the dog, and I picked it up and chucked it. Examples of violence in regards to feeling in control would be whenever we get a mice infestation, I catch them and kill them, the greatest one is a big one I caught that almost wiggled off the glue trap, so I had to stab it over and over until it stopped resisting, and then I blew it's head off with a pellet gun. 


If I really must tell you why I punched my brother, he does shit to piss me off all the time, and I got angry because he ate my delicious chicken breast I was saving for later after I had gotten done working out. It was a very small issue, but it was building up over time. 

I get homicidal fantasies mostly about types of people I hate like pedophiles, as well those I view as corrupt and a plague to mankind. There's more to it, but there are things I just don't really discuss because the contents of it are worse than what I normally am willing to speak on. 

In regards to your dismissive-avoidant assessment, I would say that is pretty accurate on with the tendencies in my behavior. 

Sintetika said: 

 I started beating the dog, and I picked it up and chucked it

 Was there any remorse here later on? Perhaps you repressed feelings of regret, or was there nothing at all? 

Sintetika said: 

I get homicidal fantasies mostly about types of people I hate like pedophiles, as well those I view as corrupt and a plague to mankind. There's more to it, but there are things I just don't really discuss because the contents of it are worse than what I normally am willing to speak on. 

 Is that because you have a sense of justice and wish for them to pay for what they've done? How do you feel about people who abuse animals? Do you justify that aspect of yourself?

Slay said: 

Sintetika said: 

 I started beating the dog, and I picked it up and chucked it

 Was there any remorse here later on? Perhaps you repressed feelings of regret, or was there nothing at all? 

 

 

Sintetika said: 

I get homicidal fantasies mostly about types of people I hate like pedophiles, as well those I view as corrupt and a plague to mankind. There's more to it, but there are things I just don't really discuss because the contents of it are worse than what I normally am willing to speak on. 

 Is that because you have a sense of justice and wish for them to pay for what they've done? How do you feel about people who abuse animals? Do you justify that aspect of yourself?

 

 I don't feel any remorse for what I did to my dog, I don't consider it as bad. I would say it's a mix of justice and playing into my urges for control. I wouldn't justify that aspect of myself, I try to stay from hurting animals, I don't think I hurt my dog that much, it was more of a punishment. 

I saw a video of two guys punching and stomping a deer in the head, I enjoyed watching it, but I would still love to torture and kill the guys doing it. I don't hate animals, they are just a medium, I fantasize about hurting other humans. 

This has a ton of questions tbh

FAM1 Family discord 80
TPA2 Competitive Drive 66
Asp2 Antisocial Behaviour 74
Asp1 Antisocial Attitudes 66
Disc Disconstraint 82

AGGR Aggressiveness 84

hpm hypomanic activation 76

asb antisocial behaviour 80

Ma-s Hypomania subtle 80

Pd-O Psychopatic defiate obvious 68

Ho Hostility 65

MD marital Distress 69 ???

AAS Addiction acknowledgment 80

MACR Mac Andrew alcohol 72

ES Ego strength 67

FAM Family problems 66

ASP Antisocial practices 79

Ma3 Impreturbability 65

Ma1 Amorality 81

Sc2 Emotional alienation 69

Sc1 Social alienation 72

Pd2 Authority problems 68

Pd1 Familial Discord 78

D3 Phisycal Malfunctioning 67 ???

Ma Hypomania 81

Edited for the high ones.

natasha87 said: 

you're smarter than i remember slay. prison did u good huh

A good liar doesn't just lie about one or two things. They craft themselves around a plausible presentation.

Before I go to sleep, I guess I'll clarify, the things I speak about are a feeling of control urge that does not include sexual gratification, it's more of a good feeling, I don't know how to entirely describe it.


The things I don't speak on do involve sexual gratification, I wouldn't say I have a giant sex drive, but it does connect with my fantasies sometimes.

I'd prefer not to disclose exactly what it is as I still try to maintain some sort of reputation.