Just bumping this because this thread is pretty interesting. Plus, I'd like to continue the conversation that was going here.
Which part?
Just bumping this because this thread is pretty interesting. Plus, I'd like to continue the conversation that was going here.
Which part?
The parts about himself.
It seems to be one of his favorite subjects.
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I mean yes, I would like to continue the convo with me, but in general I find this thread to be interesting and other people's scores like analyzing user, I'd especially like to hear his thoughts on your scores.
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I'd call it self-indulgent. That can happen without picking yourself as a favorite (in fact, a lot of self-indulgence can be over hating yourself).
He however is quite overt. If someone brings him up in a descriptive light he practically hungers for the continued discussion, but once it becomes about other people the only one he really notices with any gusto is Jim.
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I'd call it self-indulgent. That can happen without picking yourself as a favorite (in fact, a lot of self-indulgence can be over hating yourself).
He however is quite overt. If someone brings him up in a descriptive light he practically hungers for the continued discussion, but once it becomes about other people the only one he really notices with any gusto is Jim.
What are you implying in regards to Jim? I find psychology in general to be an interesting topic to me.
I don't necessarily hate myself, I have self-critiques but I work towards fixing them, that doesn't mean I view myself as a plague that should be destroyed.
In regards to Jim, I am civil with him, but I would still execute him, just like I would with CS or any other pedophile.
I don't view myself as highly narcissistic nor do I really want everything to revolve around me. What do you expect from a conversation like this? I did the test, put my scores in, and Slay interpreted, I wanted to continue said conversation. He impresses me with his knowledge on the topic, I'd genuinely like to hear what else he has to say, and I was hoping I could see others put their scores in, and see what they get.
I guess you could derive me being narcissistic when I speak about my goals in my life, and my dream of being a leader, (which is only one of the different lights I view myself) but that's secondary to my main goal which is to bring about change. I don't see myself as superior to someone like you, TC. In fact I quite enjoy your feedback, I especially enjoy my conversations with Alice, and I have made some talk with others like Lena, Peach, and Blanc, and Aeonian.
I don't deny that I'm a flawed person, and I seek to become better.
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1) Fits pretty much like a glove. No hallucinations. Not too keen on delusions, but they're sometimes there. They come in the form of me usually not being able to accept reality and sticking with my slightly alternate view despite seeing contrary evidence.
To give an example of this, I believe I can bluff any opponent at poker, I have the aggression in me to simply bet, go all in with absolutely nothing, and have them fold. I love doing this. Now, when I notice tells of someone having a great hand(shakey foot, looking at chips, asking if it's their turn to bet : clear indicators of them having the good hand) I'm still having trouble not to bluff at them like a maniac. I convince myself in my head, that they're faking those tells because they want to pretend they have a good hand so I don't bluff them (lmao, I have no regrets when I do this).
-Impulsivity, delusions, unable to delay gratification.
Random things tick me off to no end and have me seek vengeance against the person, while some bigger things, that should matter more, leave me cold and indifferent. It just depends on how I pick up the stimuli. generally someone scoring a "win" against me has to pay for it dearly, if I had a button that I could push and have the logically innocent person that slighted me die, I would do it without regrets.
I'm not manipulative in a targeted ominous way. It's natural to act in a way that has people like you. And I like being on good terms with interesting people.
2) It works as well. I'm single minded when I want something, and all my efforts go into getting it. I refuse to go for high-risk options as a rule though. -think light yagami not giving up half of his lifespan for the eyes- . I'm never really decided 100% I want something. So I usually just relentlessly making half-assed jumps towards getting something, while also sometimes wanting the exact opposite (in which case I stop my progress and try hard not to self-sabotage). Pretty parasitic lifestyle, and I really suffer from chronic boredom most of the times, unless I find "the next big project". Big projects simply succeed 90% of the time, but at the cost of almost everything else, all or nothing, no in-between. When they fail I might get delusional and cling to not giving up mixed up with self-destructive behaviour. But this doesn't always happen. If it becomes "not worth it" then I just revert back to default.
3) Pretty accurate as well.
4) Way better now then when I took the test (results are a few months old cause lena posted it as well). I don't struggle with tobacco anymore compared to back then. And not doing any drugs. It's anti-fun, but it's a fight I'm required to win, otherwise I can't get what I want. It's not really correct for attitudes, I cut my drinking in the past 3 months as well. Bit of going over the top with new years' and Christmas, but those are over now. Not really regretting much. It's unfortunate that somethings happened and I know what to do to have them not repeat. Even though I'm intellectually aware of this, need to force myself to learn from past mistakes.
5) They're pretty much right, except for:
incapable of deep emotional -> I am capable of bonding with people. And I'm capable of forming deep bonds as well. When that happens, it generally leads to a weird type of loyalty. I accept their free-will and wants. They're allowed to have them, and I won't act against them. I can try to give little smudges and pushes as to what those might be, but never going to force them to do what I want, nor vengefully go after them.
A shadow not so dark.