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sometimes it feels like falling 

Blanc said: 

 

sometimes you just know you're not right but you don't know how to get back to normal 

Most cases of this are through having formed habits that have solidified into a pattern lifestyle. You ought to be infinitely familiar with the things you're always doing, but "how to get back to normal" is itself illusiory. 

You need to find how to go forward to the next stage as opposed to back to a point that no longer exists, and that will only come from opening yourself up for the room to make new mistakes instead of just the same old familiar ones. 

Breaking a cycle doesn't require a well thought out plan, it takes throwing yourself into something new. It's so much easier to stick to an itinerary of new ideas when the environment around you isn'ta reflection of the world before it. 

Blanc said: 

 I didn't describe this one with words because its really difficult to, but its not like the others I've described. 

its *extra weird* 

um.... hm. fuck. it really just feels like the picture. like you feel the after trail of your face as it moves around, you feel it there. its really weird and disorienting. 

this is the most difficult one to handle like, I can make most of my mental illness inconspicuous if I try hard enough but this one I can't hide because its just way too cumbersome. 

and this is what I do when its happening lol 

and people are like are u ok??? 

and im just like "yep" 

lately, I've been experiencing dissociation alongside panic attacks so that's fun 

panic attack symptom, your chest feels like its turning to ice 

Here's mine.

interesting 

what you look like to other people while you're dissociating 

the straring one I used to do a lot but its gotten better. I'd just completely space out at a dinner table or in class. it happened to me so much growing up I thought this was just a normal thing everyone did but. yeah I realize now it's not really normal as I've gotten more mentally healthy than I was initially- im like more with it and this doesn't happen nearly as much. 

but yeah one time, I was just staring out a window and I just, lost all space and time for hours and hours. and when I came back I realized it was dark outside and I went and laid down 

but according to my mom she had a brief conversation with me during this staring episode and I have zero recollection of. 

it's as if zero seconds passed from the moment I looked out the window- to when I become conscious again- but I had been sitting there for *hours* 

what it feels like coming out of a panic attack / dissociation 

the fog is stripped away and the cloudiness decipates and suddenly vision is sharp again dn u feel grounded and reality feels/looks normal again. you're no longer far away from yourself or experiencing strange physiological/psychological symptoms 

slow process, takes about 30 minutes not 3 seconds like this gif shows 

as slowly and seemlessly as a head ache dissipates after taking a pill to get rid of it. you don't notice it's gone until it's gone. 

I see these "end trails" all the time. 

not literally 24/7 but, I'm just using it as a phrase of speech because this happens very often to me. I can move my hands around in a circle and I will see the circle it left in the air of my hands like a freeze frame. 

lol accurate