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Mine's more like a gray scale display of life where nothing means anything beyond being sensory stimulus at all. 

It's blank, meditative, but not by choice. 

not kidding, it really feels like this. drowning in the air, and disappearing 

but it everything feels cold and wet, and light like water 

and the further you disappear the lighter it all gets 

until you can't feel anything anymore at all 

or you're separate from your body, or, a party of your body separates 

like you feel your hands typing on the keyboard but they're not there, and they're not attached to you they're just floating 

not even like dramatizing it, thats 100% what it literally feels like 

these are just *some* (only a few) physical symptoms of dissociation but there are many types and many ways in which people can experience symptoms 

people are talking to you or trying to like drag you out of it but you're not there 

when it finally passes and you open your eyes the world looks new again 

sometimes it feels like im really up high and floaty and im walking on this thin line

like a very inaccurate sense of altitude and gravity, while also feeling like I'm constantly right about to fall 

the ground turning to ice and you feel like your feet are moving when they hit the ground 

and it also feels cold like ice and slushy like this when you touch things like, even your shirt 

everything is too slippery and smushy like its all being perceived the wrong texture and elasticity than it physically is 

giving it more movement and give than it physically has as a solid object 

sometimes you feel like dizzy like you're moving a lot when you're sitting perfectly still 

or even like everything is spinning 

also during this it feels like other things around you are moving that normally aren't 

like this river here, when in reality its just a road 

the ground moves beneath you 

your surroundings are in motion all around you, and its hard to hold onto anything. like, being on a ride thats going so fast- but you've got no seat belt. you have the horizontal motion flying around you in your perpindicular senses, and then, you also have the distorted sense of just morphing and turning in all sorts of unusual curvatures, that aren't physically possible to achieve 

long periods of time fly by faster than the blink of an eye, and you don't know where the time went, when you finally "come to".. or where you went for that matter. it just seems like you turned off like a light switch. and then someone turned the light back on. 

sometimes you just know you're not right but you don't know how to get back to normal