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I don't think blanc is lying about most of what she says 

Xadem said: 

I don't think blanc is lying about most of what she says 

What do you think? 

Turncoat said: 

Xadem said: 

I don't think blanc is lying about most of what she says 

What do you think? 

 I think blanc is being truthful about most of what she says

Xadem said: 

Turncoat said: 

Xadem said: 

I don't think blanc is lying about most of what she says 

What do you think? 

 I think blanc is being truthful about most of what she says

Like which stuff in particular? 

Turncoat said: 

Xadem said: 

Turncoat said: 

Xadem said: 

I don't think blanc is lying about most of what she says 

What do you think? 

 I think blanc is being truthful about most of what she says

Like which stuff in particular? 

 having parents

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Blanc said: 

Things me and my sister have in common, 

 

we both like starbucks, and we both think our parents are nuts. 

 

We talk about it sometimes. 

 

And her husband noticed me and her sleep the same way. Her our arms clenched to our chest, like a mummy. 

 

He thought it was odd we sleep in the *exact* same position. It’s as if we are protecting our chests. 

 

But other than that we are pretty much opposites. Oh and the music thing, we are both into music and sometimes we jam together. Or if she starts painting, i will start painting too. And Vs. we spur each other on in that way. 

 

We even played live together a few times and things like that. Or recorded and things like that together a lot. 

 

Our voices sound really good together so we’ve been told, and the chemistry on the stage when we play together is better than any live playing experience i’ve Had with any band mates or whoever, with any audience in any scenario. 

 

The audience actually gets engaged and you can tell they like it, i mean, they clap along to the beat and things. There is something magical about when we play together. 

 

She wants to continue recording more music and still dreams of meeting her idol Jack White. other idols of hers are bob Dylan and,.. Elliot smith and... bright eyes. 

 

She was who introduced me to the Beatles as a child and, when she wasn’t around i would steal her CD player and jam out to the white album alone in her room XD 

 

but she hated me going in her room :P you know, older sibling stuff. 

 

She still steals all my clothes. Hahah 

 

she used to smoke but she quit. She also used to take Prozac but quit that too. I know she’s done DXM and shrooms and smoked weed a lot. She’s kind of a hippie as is her husband. 

 

Her boyfriend grew up in a van. I mean, it dosn’t Get more hippie than that. For Christmas, he baked us bread. As a gift. We thought it was very weird but, to a hippie that’s normal. Lol he is a strange dude

 every scenario u mentioned here makes me think of retards. your sister being in the special olympics, a room full of retards clapping their hands together to curb their autistic impulses, and u both sleeping like down syndromes together

life update i'm finally back in my apartment and i feel a lot better. 

all the stress of living at home really wore me thin. i'm never doing that again please dear god. 

i don't care what it takes i'm staying in this apartment. 

that place makes me suicidal. 

i have this auto immune disease he talks about. i have a specialist i see, and i made sure the therapist i hired was also a dietition nutritionist and understood how depression works at the molecular, neuropsychological level- as a result of, issues that would concern a funcitonal medicine doctor (mainly). for this reason. because, she understands that this is not just mental its also physiologically caused for me too. 

my doc is func medicine, nutritionist/dietition, endocrinologist, and neurologist. i went to her trying to make sense of my symptoms, i felt tired all the time. i went to my GP and he was like "eh, you're a little anemic whatever." and my psychiatrist gave me some "folic acid" (which my body can't even properly metabolize so it was doing nothing) and my GP told me to take over the counter iron. Neither of these helped, and my psychiatric meds only *halfway* helped. (lexapro 20mg) 

so, i went to this doc, and she's *amazing* and she works for body logic which is a company that specializes in giving people customized supplements to work exactly for their body- at the molecular level. basically my body doesn't like to make *anything* or *process* anything it's supposed to on its own. and it needs help to fucking work right. 

so this is what i mean when i tell people i have asthma. the condition is actually caused by this long, long explanation of issues going on in my body that are extremely specific. but it's just, not enough oxygen. so i can't fucking breathe, when the heart rate gets too high- aka, when i run, things like that. hence why i can't run. 

it's not just "being out of shape" my doctor explained to me, it's severe anemia. 

anyway i'm glad we caught it when we did because if we waited any longer i may of wound up in a hospital bed passed out, just from the anemia alone. lol.

but yeah, so the not being able to breath thing is just a result of all of that stuff going on. so is depression and anxiety, it's a part of seratonin imbalance, which results from lack of b12 and iron being processed absorbed from the gut etc. to create the serataonin in the first place. 

this likely contributed *halfway* to the mental breakdown i sort of had, with severe high levels of anxiety and all that, that went on just before i wound up mentally hospitalized losing my fucking mind from the anx. and dep. coupled at very high levels. the other half was made up by circumstantia and internal flaws/issues going on i had to sort out that were affecting me. 

so yeah, mental and physical health go hand in hand ya'll. my therapist tells me every time. take ur meds. *all of them* it will be what makes me better in the long run. 

also daily reminder to drink water and take your health seriously :) if u wonder if u have these issues, couldn't hurt to go see a func med doc urself and see, whats really going on in there at the molecular level. they do a full work up based on your symptoms if any, and they measure the symptoms methodically with a questionaiire that is very very long so don't worry about leaving out anythign important- they're the doctors they've got this down to a science. they know these things are hard to find and people don't realize they have them. so they've pretty much perfected the art of looking for problems. func med docs are a lot more thorough than any doc you'll meet is why i recommend. 

but from there they may, based on ur blood work and survey results, recommend you see a specialist like neuro, cardiac, etc. because they believe your problems are in these areas etc. 

it can be confusing at first getting to the nbottom of the cloud of symptoms and unknowns but, my doc made me feel really at ease through the whole process because i knew she listened to me and took me seriously when i said things and she took every detail into account. and she was also a perfectionist, like this isn't a waste of money she wouldn't let that happen she, made sure that the numbers you walkd in on with your chart, she will correct all of them. and continue to check and check and tweak the treatment plan until it's fully correct. 

because that's where the rest of monitoring becomes important, if these values didn't improve on my charts with the medication then it meant i had a really serious problem beyond auto immune like, possibly cancer. but luckily mine did improve so i'm not dying :) 

and she promised that after enough time of the treatment plan, i would be able to run again and be able to breath so that was a huge relief for me. 

the only thing that's annoying is that i have a lot of things to take. it's hard to fit them all into one of these things. 

imagine every four hours having to swallow this

you get used to it though. i started getting good at just gulping down multiples at once. 

i also have a specific diet i'm supposed to adhere to, it's really, really specific. most food just makes me feel bad. 

that's why i used to never eat, everything made me feel like shit one way or another. 

basically my body doesn't like a lot of stuff, to simplify it. 

but yeah it was nice to have someone be like "ur not crazy, for not wanting to eat bread. you're gluten intolerant, not weird." 

and i'm like "oh ok thanks"

my parents thought i was crazy i was like "ehhh i dont want bread, or cheese. or grease. or this, or that or this." 

and they're like -.- ur just being a little bitch! and then my doc is like, "actually..... she's in tune with her body"

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something like this has been on my wishlist for a while. 

you just pour all your pills into different cylinders within the machine. and then schedule in your medicine schedule and it will disperse on time and remind you to take it and shit. 

i already use reminders on my phone but this is just nice because do you know how annoying it is to re-fill that little pill holder thingy every fucking 7 days. you spend an hour every week, just organizing all your fucking pills and like i said they don't even all fit in the little boxes cuz i ahve too many 

it just would be so convenient :P but it's boujee... but... so convenient :P just sayinggg

this is great for older people though who like can't remember how to sort their pills out or, when to take them or- if they even took them or not. 

they also have lock settings on it like, if ur dealing with someone untrustworthy with regulating their meds for hwatever reason, etc. 

this is the one i want!!! it's so epic

it orders new pills for you when you're running low!!! i don't have to worry about that because my doc ships them to my door on an automatic schedule but still, for people who don't have that option that's fucking awesome! it has facial recognition. 

i dont know why i'm so excited about a pill dispenser lol