No motivation for achievements, not for love, no offence, that comes across as deadbeat energy to me.
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I understand there are people who don't strive for anything, homeless and jobless people do that too
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I'm doing God's work, I don't need validation from you or others, when I have it from God. This is what you get wrong. I'm trying to be as great as Jesus, while you evidently want to be as great as Donald Trump. This is the difference in our mentality.
There's nothing wrong with wanting to be Donald Trump, but then I could see how my comment may have hurt you. When I was small, I wanted to be like Albert Einstein. However, when I got to the same intellectual level, I understood that what he did was mundane. It was only because of where I was standing that it looked like he had done something that nobody could do. Once I could do similar things, my view changed. I still appreciate what he did, but I understand that he was just a human. I still can't turn water to wine, and I'm afraid of death, but I think in some time I will hope to be at least more like Jesus Christ.
My point was that you're motivated by money, fame, and validation, similar to Trump, whereas I am motivated by a higher purpose. You're conflating having motivation to do things with being motivated "by" the same things you're motivated by.
I consider myself fortunate that I am not desperate for money, fame, and validation, but I am desperate for a higher purpose. It may be that it's because of how my parents taught me, or it may be because of Jesus.
...To be honest, everything you said validates my hypothesis. You simply misunderstood what I said because you didn't read it carefully. When I said you'd be the kid that would tell all his friends, whereas I would not, I didn't mean that you'd boast. I meant that your end goal was breaking the record whereas my end goal was not that extrinsic reward. Your lack of understanding of how anyone could function and be motivated without those extrinsic rewards is the proof that I was right.
When I said I wanted to understand the world, and I did, you asked me why did I not give you a laundry list of accomplishments. I said I didn't find those accomplishments hard nor did I ever strive for them, with the PhD being an example. You then understood that I no longer strive for anything because I have a PhD because you couldn't understand how I could possibly not care about my PhD degree. It wasn't the PhD degree I cared about, it is understanding the world that I care about. I couldn't care less about the nobel prize, my degree, or external validation, because they're not what motivate me. This is why I said if we were two kids swimming in a pool, you'd celebrate breaking that swimming record, because it gives you a sense of validation, whereas for me it wouldn't be why I was swimming. Similarly, I didn't care about my degree, just like I wouldn't care about breaking the record, my sports medals, or my record, though I realise you're asking me to validate myself to you.
You're lying about your motive for questioning my ability to do research. You hypothesized that it's a sense of pride for me, and you wanted to test that. That's why you answer by reiterating what you said instead of explaining the underlying motive. You know my background, so why else harp on my understanding of research, when you yourself have no research background? It's petty and kills the conversation, and shows how much you want to push me down instead of celebrating the fact that I am doing well. This is why I say that comparing yourself with others instead of celebrating with them will make you unhappy.
Your laundry list of achievements tells me that you care significantly about validation. I have no such burden. I have my validation from God.