Your spirit rape has remained a curiosity to me, but I don't know how to really ask for further elaboration from you without it feeling rude.
My presumption has been that you enter a form of seizure that you take as such, but I would love to hear your version?
Your spirit rape has remained a curiosity to me, but I don't know how to really ask for further elaboration from you without it feeling rude.
My presumption has been that you enter a form of seizure that you take as such, but I would love to hear your version?
no it is not a seizure it feels like having all of the experiences of being physically touched like all of the reactions to it except the actual hard solid physical form of the other person is not there except for one specific part but as far as like physically feeling the weight of someone on top of you nope
Your spirit rape has remained a curiosity to me, but I don't know how to really ask for further elaboration from you without it feeling rude.
My presumption has been that you enter a form of seizure that you take as such, but I would love to hear your version?no it is not a seizure it feels like having all of the experiences of being physically touched like all of the reactions to it except the actual hard solid physical form of the other person
So it feels identical otherwise?
From past experience, do you notice this happening to you more or less when you use, uh, 'Toys'?
This has me question if you adjusting your libido might adjust how often this hits you.
Your spirit rape has remained a curiosity to me, but I don't know how to really ask for further elaboration from you without it feeling rude.
My presumption has been that you enter a form of seizure that you take as such, but I would love to hear your version?no it is not a seizure it feels like having all of the experiences of being physically touched like all of the reactions to it except the actual hard solid physical form of the other person
So it feels identical otherwise?
From past experience, do you notice this happening to you more or less when you use, uh, 'Toys'?
This has me question if you adjusting your libido might adjust how often this hits you.
I mean you can question all that you want but I have my own theories ofc
Mostly wondering if your unaddressed libido might lead to some abnormal form of wet dream, if it's not some kind of abnormality like a seizure or something.
You have been reporting this happening to you for a while now.
Mostly wondering if your unaddressed libido might lead to some abnormal form of wet dream, if it's not some kind of abnormality like a seizure or something.
You have been reporting this happening to you for a while now.
lol I used to have a super high libido and was way more codependent on having a significant other before moving to hollywood and none of that started happening until after communicating with Michael like if you remember how I used to sext with people all of the time on here like years ago I specifically remember that it started happening last June and that it was specifically related to Michael so either he did something to me or there was some sort of twin flame stuff going on with our energies and it unlocked that ability in me "to be raped when I'm horny" (which is really rude honestly TC) connecting with his energy eventually unlocked my ability to self heal too
I still think toys would potentially reduce your libido overtime and, with it, these attacks or whatever you'd call them as shorthand.
In your shoes I'd probably be looking for food or other resources that could stand to reduce libido. From experience, forgetting to address that has led me to some pretty weird times.
I still think toys would potentially reduce your libido overtime and, with it, these attacks or whatever you'd call them as shorthand.
In your shoes I'd probably be looking for food or other resources that could stand to reduce libido. From experience, forgetting to address that has led me to some pretty weird times.
but I don't get turned on often enough to use toys anymore I'm more focused on other stuff your sexual energy can be put towards other goals by the way and if you deplete yourself constantly that can be a form of self sabotaging
I still think toys would potentially reduce your libido overtime and, with it, these attacks or whatever you'd call them as shorthand.
In your shoes I'd probably be looking for food or other resources that could stand to reduce libido. From experience, forgetting to address that has led me to some pretty weird times.but I don't get turned on often enough to use toys anymore I'm more focused on other stuff
I have seen religion in general try to redirect sexual energy towards faith, and I have quite a lot to say over how that's questionable for one's mental health at best.
your sexual energy can be put towards other goals by the way and if you deplete yourself constantly that can be a form of self sabotaging
If done constantly you'd run through all your fun chemicals, leading to you being a bit of a zombie husk until it recovers.
Chronic Masturbation is not healthy and is far from what I am recommending. I am recommending instead moderation, addressing problem areas just enough to chill rather than flooding one extreme out with another.
I've fallen into porn addiction habits before, that is not what I recommend, but ignoring the libido entirely is worse imo.
anyway I feel guilty that I don't know how to fully heal my soul into complete integration or at least if it has a process to know the correct process and it move pretty quickly because I believe in finding a solution to soul fragmentation like that like I am not a believer in waiting 100 years for one soul fragment to come back like western therapy settles for
no I already know shamanic methods have ways of doing this much much more efficiently and faster and if I can figure our how to do this on myself then maybe Michael will trust me to lead him out of his darkness and I would do that for him and not abandon him besides when his energy communicates with mine I feel all of his entire shadow I already can feel everything that he has going on and have taken that into myself just like I take on the psychological sickness of everyone alive I genuinely feel that I have taken on the psychological sicknesses of everyone in existence including past generations and that is why it has taken me so long to finally be able to self heal like I did not even know that I was a shaman and that the being in energetic communication with everything around you (although for me my senses were more heightened to my connection with people and vibes in manmade buildings and less to nature because I was in survival mode) and the dancing that I did when I would listen to the same songs over and over and kind of zone out like I had been doing that for years and that is like light trance shamanic culture combines music (usually drums and rattles) and dancing with trance and now I know that this is how I will practice too but see I was doing most healing stuff wrong because I did not know wtf I was doing because I was seeing life through the perspectives of psychological sickness that I absorbed from humanity like an empathic sponge
