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0.0 I have been diagnosed with borderline pd and bipolar II and I have never even suicide attempted once or physically self harmed enough to be hospitalized for because every time I go to the psych hospital first and after a couple weeks I am fine again mostly it is just giving myself a mental break where my mind can full-time process everything and integrate as well as adjusting and adding medications if necessary
It is actually impressive that I have these disorders and have never done either of these two things, and this is another reason that I dislike this forum because instead of being optimistic and seeing the best in me and encouraging me to be the best happiest most loving and compassionate version of myself, most people here try to focus on even the slightest thing "imperfect" about myself and then overexaggerate it and blow it way out of proportion 🤦♀️🙄 It really becomes uninteresting to read after a while and that is how I feel presently
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11/22/2022 5:48:41 AM
0.0 I have been diagnosed with borderline pd and bipolar II and I have never even suicide attempted once or physically self harmed enough to be hospitalized for because every time I go to the psych hospital first and after a couple weeks I am fine again mostly it is just giving myself a mental break where my mind can full-time process everything and integrate as well as adjusting and adding medications if necessary
It is actually impressive that I have these disorders and have never done either of these two things, and this is another reason that I dislike this forum because instead of being optimistic and seeing the best in me and encouraging me to be the best happiest most loving and compassionate version of myself most people here try to focus on even the slightest thing "imperfect" about myself and then overexaggerate it and blow it way out of proportion 🤦♀️🙄 It really becomes uninteresting to read after a while and that is how I feel presently
bad person disease bpd
0.0 I have been diagnosed with borderline pd and bipolar II and I have never even suicide attempted once or physically self harmed enough to be hospitalized for because every time I go to the psych hospital first and after a couple weeks I am fine again mostly it is just giving myself a mental break where my mind can full-time process everything and integrate as well as adjusting and adding medications if necessary
It is actually impressive that I have these disorders and have never done either of these two things, and this is another reason that I dislike this forum because instead of being optimistic and seeing the best in me and encouraging me to be the best happiest most loving and compassionate version of myself most people here try to focus on even the slightest thing "imperfect" about myself and then overexaggerate it and blow it way out of proportion 🤦♀️🙄 It really becomes uninteresting to read after a while and that is how I feel presently
bad person disease bpd
I consider myself to have a "chaotic neutral" personality- not good or bad and I am in recovery and only have borderline pd traits
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0.0 I have been diagnosed with borderline pd and bipolar II and I have never even suicide attempted once or physically self harmed enough to be hospitalized for because every time I go to the psych hospital first and after a couple weeks I am fine again mostly it is just giving myself a mental break where my mind can full-time process everything and integrate as well as adjusting and adding medications if necessary
It is actually impressive that I have these disorders and have never done either of these two things, and this is another reason that I dislike this forum because instead of being optimistic and seeing the best in me and encouraging me to be the best happiest most loving and compassionate version of myself, most people here try to focus on even the slightest thing "imperfect" about myself and then overexaggerate it and blow it way out of proportion 🤦♀️🙄 It really becomes uninteresting to read after a while and that is how I feel presently
Good.
Not much to tell you, but good.
Suicide is selfish.
Spoken like someone who's never felt the urge beyond a passing moment of self-shame at most for having gone there.
It's a desperate solution for pain, even just considering the option gives them more of a feeling of control over their own lives to the point that many psych themselves into not doing it, and for some that pain is chronic and exhausting, simply wanting a rest from it while seeing ending it all as the only answer left.
People always try to angle the whole "But think about the people left behind who have to deal with your passing", which just lends to them socially isolating so that their death won't hurt as many people. This attitude people like you have against suicidal behavior is typically responsible for escalation, when all you have to do is be a decent, empathetic human being to otherwise not be responsible for pushing them over the edge.
If people thought about Suicide more, we'd have a lot less suicidal contagion and lashing out over pure naiveté. People with these problems should have a platform to talk about it, either to air out the baggage or as a cry for help to get assistance, as otherwise it powder kegs until they do something about it in a moment of passion.This time it was intended as emotional blackmail.
It's a cry for help and she didn't know what else to do.
She knows saying this stuff out loud is enough to get yourself put away in a ward, yet she said it anyway.As for you TC. Your sympathy is the reward she gets for dealing with you. In a DM she in part blames you for her condition cause you're a complete dick and a waste of time.
Am I supposed to stop sympathizing with her just because she enters her devaluing stage where she externalizes all blame? She can't help that shit, and frankly deserves sympathy as a victim here.
I can see why she never called you her friend, even on one of her good days.Those who find attention in this type of drama will seek your sympathy this way. YOUR sympathy which doesn't really exist unless you look bad. She's right to dislike you.
Stupid people.
You really do lack empathy jeez.
I've always been empathetic and sympathetic towards suicidal ideation, people've been having me be their confidant in relation to it when they need to talk to someone to try to snap out of it from noticing how I am not rebuking their honesty (even one day strangers met at the club and shit).
Suicide is a serious subject, and your solution is to be a dick about it. That's how you get people to kill themselves, and that you can't even understand basic chain reactions shows a lot about what cognitive functions you lack that your average layman might otherwise not. While most suicide attempts fail, most who've tried are liable to keep trying until it eventually succeeds... especially as long as this stigma continues.
It ends up being seen as so shameful that they keep it to themselves until they explode, many really just need the room to talk about it to clear the cache and feel lighter again.
you spent most of your time nit picking and trying to mess with her, even changing your avi based on her current obsession. i remember saying how fucked up it is that you tend to do this to the more unstable women here (delora and med too) for your own satisfaction then pretend you're trying to help them lmao
Yeah I have to push her away. True.
You really don't, you're just stubborn and unwilling to listen to reason.
She's not like Sugar. That is all. Not trying to make a big deal out of it.
My point was moreover how your antics are pushing her away, not that you feel some need to distance yourself from her or otherwise cut her off.I think it's your antics tbh. I explained that. I don't like the way you think.
exactly what i thought tony. lena had a legit issue with what you said, and cos tc was swinging from her balls being like 'yea, exactly, i agree' u then get mad at lena and assume she is in cahoots with him.
we all know tc is full of shit and took pleasure in messing with turq so he really doesn't give af, but lena does and she means what she says. she is an honorable woman and you should have more faith in her than to think she would be swayed by a slimy weasel lmao
Yeah I have to push her away. True.
You really don't, you're just stubborn and unwilling to listen to reason.
She's not like Sugar. That is all. Not trying to make a big deal out of it.
My point was moreover how your antics are pushing her away, not that you feel some need to distance yourself from her or otherwise cut her off.I think it's your antics tbh. I explained that. I don't like the way you think.
exactly what i thought tony. lena had a legit issue with what you said, and cos tc was swinging from her balls being like 'yea, exactly, i agree' u then get mad at lena and assume she is in cahoots with him.
we all know tc is full of shit and took pleasure in messing with turq so he really doesn't give af, but lena does and she means what she says. she is an honorable woman and you should have more faith in her than to think she would be swayed by a slimy weasel lmao
This isn't the only time I got into it with Lena, this was the straw that broke the camel's back. This was actually one of the milder clashes I think. This time I'd say I just put up with her labeling me cause I don't respect suicide and I frown at weakness. And it's not like I'm out to bully the weak, but I don't cheer them on for being weak minded when that shit is the road to agony.
To fill you in on what happened here. Emily had an episode where she believed Mike Majlak was stalking her here. Mike is a youtuber who also works with Logan Paul on his podcast. Originally she liked Logan then decided to flirt with all of Logan's friends, then she caught feeling for Mike, that in itself is a long story that involves her hitting him up on Twitter endlessly and him blocking her etc. She was convinced Mike was in SC, and when she had that episode she demanded that Mike respond or she'll kill herself. That is emotional blackmail, and not very effective considering Mike being here was a part of her delusion.
I've confronted Emily on her episodes time and time again, sometimes in DM's I'd ask her to cool it, other times I would choke her out, she'd attack me for a day, then next day it never happened. In her last days she asked if I she could live with me and as she left I'm the one she respected, cause I don't enable her by approving of her bullshit like the others here. Her road to recover WILL NOT be found by sympathy over juvenile behavior. There was also follow up threads after this one where she was fine, and got into it with TC.
Nathan probably thinks he deserves to be treated better by Emily, but Emily recognizes her wrongs and finds no healing in supplying a meltdown with sympathy, she also recognizes how much of a opportunist Nate is. Normally the sympathiser could be left bewildered from how that turned out, but this is Emily, she's very eccentric and she will call out her own bullshit and seek to become better.