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JesusistheKing said: 

as most of you know,  I have had a tendency in the past towards delusional,  hallucinatory, schizophrenic, hypomanic and manic thinking and behavior patterns,  and the above mentioned addictions are actually what has fueled this thinking and behavior for me  and what has prevented changing this thinking and behavior in me for the better is very very simple-  fear.

As well as, by your own claims plainly anyway, Multiple Personality Disorder. 

In the field, they tend to just say one disorder if it otherwise explains the other symptoms, and you do not from what I can tell display any sort of 'down' symptoms so I'd attribute a different word to it than 'Mania'. 

change is scary,  and wanting to be "normal and well adjusted" feels scary.  It is new,  it is different,  but most if all what if I lose everything that made me feel special and interesting ? what if I become boring and no one notices me anymore ?

Once you've undergone such a change, you would need to find those things after through more concrete accomplishments. 

I also seriously doubt you'll just stop being disordered, no one does that. In this setup the best we have to hope for is Harm Reduction, the art of reducing the impacts' power. 

In theory though, if you became 'boring and no one noticed you', that would also imply you have better control over your outbursts and display. You'd likely be more at peace with such an outcome, as by comparison you seem out of control. 

what If those dreams that I have of fame and a super sexy boyfriend who I am genuinely in love with never manifest ? and the reality that I have to face is that they might not.

If they never manifest, it's not like life itself will stop offering so many possibilities. 

I think the first step to successfully achieving a goal is being willing to give up absolutely everything else that you have ever wanted to achieve it  and I am now at a point in my life where I am ready and willing to do this

I find it more realistic to build a foundation to then branch off from, rather than throwing everything else away for a gamble. 

No offense but this is not an advice from other people thread,  as you and other people here are mentally ill,  but feel free to continue to read my updates but I will not be responding to any advice or cricitcism from people who are mentally ill themselves here in this thread or really anywhere else on this forum  just out of time management and using my time wisely  :)  there is much to study and learn about in this world,  and I do not believe in wasting time on things that are not really beneficial or enjoyable to my life anymore

JesusistheKing said: 

No offense but this is not an advice from other people thread

And yet, there it is. 

as you and others here are mentally ill,

Not everyone here has a disorder, and you insult yourself when you throw that around as reason to ignore otherwise helpful advice. 

There's the expression "Even a broken clock's right twice a day", meaning that if what's being said itself has merit it doesn't always matter who said it, as who said it does not take away from the accuracy of the words themselves. Many times with our debates you've found my words on your own later, showing how your tendency to block people out risks blocking out the very things you're otherwise looking for. 

If you're going to continue to block people out, how are you going to improve with communication, one of the areas you are specifically striving to work on? 

  but feel free to continue to read my updates but I will not be responding to any advice from people who are mentally ill themselves here in this thread or really anywhere else on this forum

Seriously you should learn to not be so aggressive against mental illness as someone who's more sick than anyone else here. 

I am not aggressive against mental illness,  but I am assertive about not enabling mental illness

and I think that everyone who has mental illness should be focusing on seeking advice from people who do not,  especially instead of trying to give advice about mental health to other people while still sick

my journal is just for me to look back on in the future and see how much progress I made

JesusistheKing said: 

I am not aggressive against mental illness,  but I am assertive about not enabling mental illness

You are pretty aggressive against listening to it, while going to a website that you otherwise think caters to it, a coping strategy. 

You even accused BT of being mentally ill to justify a stance you had, when he isn't mentally ill. You're going to that answer too quickly as a way to otherwise not have to listen to people, while if you really were looking for how 'normal' or 'typical' people would be responding to this you'd be on a forum for normal people instead of here. 

and I think that everyone who has mental illness should be focusing on seeking advice from people who do not,  especially instead of trying to give advice about mental health to other people while still sick

I disagree, as do groups like Alcoholics Anonymous. Those who are otherwise neurotypical never had to go through the same challenges, so in turn they, without a parent or sibling with disorder, usually have no understanding or advice that's otherwise relevant. This is why I've often seen people with mental illness go into psych, to figure themselves out and to try to help others not go through similar experiences, and usually they end up better at helping others than themselves. 

Through having had similar experiences, especially if they've either overcome them or at least demonstrate successful coping strategies, it gives the room to relate to it as well as see how the behaviors look when it's done by someone who isn't yourself when they fall in a way you'd be prone to doing. 

Mentally ill people have a lot to teach by parsing between what does and doesn't work for them, as it's not like mental illness is synonymous with mental retardation, they still otherwise function and found something that's brought them this far along. They also through having had no choice but to face these challenges have an eye for problems (if they're lucid), whereas neurotypical types tend to be privileged enough to not really get it. 

I did not read any of that,  this is my journal thread and I will not be responding to other people from this forum's posts  (I consider everyone here to be be mentally ill and I will be frequenting the forum less because of that)  on this thread and I hold to my above mentioned opinion  :)

You'll instead send endless strings of messages to a guy who doesn't even know you exist, totally not mentally ill at all. 

JesusistheKing said: 

I consider everyone here to be be mentally ill and I will be frequenting the forum less because of that

But BT isn't mentally ill, that's just your excuse to not have to listen to him. 

Do you figure groups like AA don't work? 

8/25/2022 a few hours later-  I think that this thread update should be included as I made this decision recently as in today and I decided that it was in the best interest of my pursuing mental health to make this decision  https://sociopathcommunity.com/Forum/Topic/25274/1/i-give-up-on-trying-to-be-with-michael-majlak