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Lenalee said: 

Do you know what friends are? 

No. Do I look like I'm not retarded?

I'll reply to you later, Spatial.

Spatial Mind said: 

I did. I pretty much told him he's making himself ill. His blood pressure was high, so it came to a point where I'd cut him off when he started and tell him to knock it off for the sake of his health.

That's good.

In emotional crisis a man's on his own. No one cares. No I'm not complaining about it, I'm just pointing out one of the reasons we have to make changes to ourselves. Sympathy from others doesn't really do anything, and if we magically feel better because someone feels sorry for us then we'll continue to seek comfort in being pitiful.

I think similarly. I could see how, if someone is unhealthy, feeling depressed, or is failing at their job, they might seek comfort in others, and in doing so, become dependent on that comfort without fixing the underlying cause.However, I think it depends on what the crisis is about. If the problem is loneliness, I think finding someone to share with could help. I think there's decent data to suggest that the number of close bonds people have is at least correlated with happiness. But maybe that's not an option for people like myself, or yourself, who have fewer people to relate to. I guess it's sink-or-swim for us.

What I find interesting about you is that you're not broken or evil. I imagine most people like you either break down or become spiteful. You don't seem that way.

That last sentence, I wrote about that in the original SC about 9 years ago in a thread I called The Process of Self Transformation. Where these low vibrational emotional states are infact our greatest opportunity to choose what we're to become. You might not believe it, but it was there I coined the term "Become the better version of yourself" before others started using it. I'm boasting but I seriously wrote that.

I believe you.

Change for the better or worse, and if we don't change we'll suffer. Once we achieve that we really become stronger and the next upset isn't so harsh, and we'll look forward to the next opportunity to change.

That's in many ways a very positive philosophy. I'd say I've changed several times over the years. So has Jim and Alice, if you've noticed.

More to follow.

Change for the better or worse, and if we don't change we'll suffer. Once we achieve that we really become stronger and the next upset isn't so harsh, and we'll look forward to the next opportunity to change.

Do you think everyone does that? Overcoming crisis. I meet very few people like that.

Little things that doesn't particularly get under my skin. She has this one friend who calls her a lot, and she'll tell her she doing something else to let her go if she's with me or our other friend. She also told me how our other frirnd needed her car fixed, so she'll need my assistance in cashing out her investment, that I pretty much gave her, so she can do car repairs. I ended up giving her the $400 in Ethereum cause I wanted to help. Then they all went to a cottage that weekend, and my date never wanted me to know about it. Honestly I don't care if they take their kids to the cottage. I do say they shouldn't spend money they don't have.

Now our friend is catching her ass, with no investments while the asset she sold anyway after i tried to prevent her from selling is now up 600%. And on the side my girl lied.

People look down on the cuckold, but that guy is beyond strong. I can relate to that while I plan my next move. I say she can go bang some guy and I won't lose any sleep over it. The other day she called me up as we discussed her unemployment, and she told me how she might have to work with some auto detailer who'll molest her. I thought to myself, the auto detailer who detailed her car for free who she probably already banged ? Oh i better intervene and do something or else she'll end up working for some molester.

This talk probably came up cause I showed her how the last $700 I gave her I could have multiplied it 214 times, and I'm not playing fight now cause it's the final quarter of the bullrun and I'm not obliged to give until the run is over.

These are my suposid problems Lega, but not really. It's why I call her my date, or a lady friend. Her child once asked me if would you give Mom a billion dollars, and the tone was as though the child was seeing if it was true, and I said nah, then I got us dinner.

I still help her out even though she has 8k to her name and bills. I asked how much is left on her car payments, she said 18k but meanwhile I recall the car being a grand total of 15k and she had it for a little over a year now.

On another note, this woman loved me, then I got rich so now it's like Lord of the Rings, where I have the ring, and she wants it more and more. If i clean up her debts, then paper trade the lost money, it would eventually turn into tens of millions of dollars I never made, and she lies often enough. It's better to let her burn and file bankruptcy, before I restore her. She wouldn't understand that. She'll end up telling me she found a guy to look after her.

It might sound like I'm complaining, but I'm just saying how things unfold in my world. I'm in control and I'm delighted, it looks painful and the old me would've probably gone stupid and I wouldn't be as successful, but there's great things on the way.

Some would say there's something wrong with me, solely because I no longer have fits over poor behaviors in relationships. Like I'm supposed to cry and whine, and be manipilated and lean on someone.

Thank you for the story. It's a peculiar relationship that you have with your date.

I don't say this lightly, but I think you're mentally stronger than I am if your story is true. I don't think I've ever thought that way when coming across anyone, so you can take it as a compliment. However, there's one bit I don't understand: Is there a reason why she is your date?

What I don't know is most things there is to know. And I do say I don't know, when I don't know.

I think I understand Blanc, she's a lot better these days compared to before. She was way needy before, now she's more chill and less annoying. I'm glad about that.

That's nice to hear. I tried reaching out to Blanc several times in the past, but I didn't get much back-and-forth. I was a little annoyed at the time, because I spent a lot of time reading her posts and responding to them, only to see that my posts were ignored. Then again, it's not like she owes me.

LeggaLeggaLegga said: 

I'm happy to hear, Feathers, that you don't share about God ironically. Maybe it was that way for me, too. I hope you can keep believing. I genuinely believe I could convince you that God doesn't exist but I feel like I'd be doing you a disservice. I feel obligated not to hurt people.

Yeah, I think it is romance movies, too, that promote this screwed up view about soulmates and love. Ever watch Alain de Botton? He's great. I feel like I'm slowly being influenced by his philosophy, even though it makes absolutely no sense and isn't backed by anything, because honestly I just want to live in a fantasy world where I can believe in all sorts of crap that has no foundation on facts or reality. I love living in lala land, and I'm not too apologetic about it to be honest. It kind of flies in the face of me being a scientist and all, but fuck science, let's embrace magic.

Let me ask you a question unironically, one that I'm genuinely interested in: Do you honestly feel anything when you watch those youtube vids with some bible verses and stuff? Genuinely? I feel nothing. It's so odd that you feel like anything when listening to those verses, to the point that you want to share them with me.

Depends on the sermon. I won't say I "feel the Holy Spirit". I'll just say I feel calm, rejuvenated, etc. Maybe I can show you some and when you can see what happens?

you're a joke

Retard123 said: 

you're a joke

 At least I make you laugh 

LeggaLeggaLegga said: 

Spatial Mind said: 

In emotional crisis a man's on his own. No one cares. No I'm not complaining about it, I'm just pointing out one of the reasons we have to make changes to ourselves. Sympathy from others doesn't really do anything, and if we magically feel better because someone feels sorry for us then we'll continue to seek comfort in being pitiful.

I think similarly. I could see how, if someone is unhealthy, feeling depressed, or is failing at their job, they might seek comfort in others, and in doing so, become dependent on that comfort without fixing the underlying cause.However, I think it depends on what the crisis is about. If the problem is loneliness, I think finding someone to share with could help. I think there's decent data to suggest that the number of close bonds people have is at least correlated with happiness. But maybe that's not an option for people like myself, or yourself, who have fewer people to relate to. I guess it's sink-or-swim for us.

What I find interesting about you is that you're not broken or evil. I imagine most people like you either break down or become spiteful. You don't seem that way.

I've been broken, but not particularly spiteful. There are a few reasons why I'm like this, firstly, I'm a theist and I do believe everything we do is bring monitored and we'll have to answer for it. Secondly I've dealt with a lot of foul play and I think of it as ugliness. To lose our cool and go on a rampage comes across as stupidity or low intelligence. Even If it's decided we need to deal damage cause we have little to no choice, we can do it more effectively if we maintain our posture.

Another thing, I think the truth really does push it's way to the top. For example I have TC constantly calling me a woman hater and always raising that aspect, meanwhile I treat all the women like I do anyone else, and I treat people better than he does. He also calls me a liar without saying what I'm lying about, which is a sign of false gossip. I recognize what he's really doing but I don't feel the need to react, probably because I wouldn't respect anyone who follows him, so his foolery is more of a service that weeds out people I shouldn't waste too much time on.

The spiteful are sour and they seek instant emotional gratification under pettiness. These types of people are the SJW who is having a tantrum in public, will sabotage beautiful/hard work. For what I believe, in a society with ultimate awareness, where there are no secrets, being that way will bring great shame to us. And I stress, great great great shame.

That last sentence, I wrote about that in the original SC about 9 years ago in a thread I called The Process of Self Transformation. Where these low vibrational emotional states are infact our greatest opportunity to choose what we're to become. You might not believe it, but it was there I coined the term "Become the better version of yourself" before others started using it. I'm boasting but I seriously wrote that.

I believe you.

Change for the better or worse, and if we don't change we'll suffer. Once we achieve that we really become stronger and the next upset isn't so harsh, and we'll look forward to the next opportunity to change.

That's in many ways a very positive philosophy. I'd say I've changed several times over the years. So has Jim and Alice, if you've noticed.

More to follow.

I wouldn't suggest Jim is worthy of any praise, "his death would in fact save countless people from a lot of grief." ( That's not even a spiteful thing to say, it's s fact ). If all he had to do was push a button to steal everything you have including the clothes off your back, he'd do it without batting an eyelash, then make fun of his victims. Other day he was carrying on about molesting a child, and how her sounds turned him on and drove him to rape her more aggressively.

Alice is my Jew and we talk from time to time, though she doesn't come here anymore she wanted us to keep in touch and it turned out very well. She's a machine when it comes to charting, some of it not even I understand how it works. Other than that I don't know too much about Alice, she's been very secretive over the years, she's a bit on the dark side.

LeggaLeggaLegga said: 

Change for the better or worse, and if we don't change we'll suffer. Once we achieve that we really become stronger and the next upset isn't so harsh, and we'll look forward to the next opportunity to change.

Do you think everyone does that? Overcoming crisis. I meet very few people like that.

Yes and no. Everyone at least stopped fussing over the same things they used to when they were a child. With that we can say those who are immature into adulthood are "most unlikely" to adapt to stress. Then we have people who are wise beyond their years and it works out for them. In my case, I had to suffer greatly before I was like "Oh no, not this again, I want it to go away" cause heartbreak for me would usually last 8 months to a year. Around that time I came to SW cause I thought I had a sociopath on my hands ( Turned out she was BPD ), the welcome was a cold one. They made fun of me and turned it the situation on myself. While broken I wanted some of the callousness, but without the ugly side. Long story short I felt better after 3 months I think. It was a new record of recovery. I was able to cast aside my feelings. 11 months later she came back and still I had complete control. Up to this day she calls, I speak to her cause I find her to be an interesting case. Other times she'll blow hot and cold at me, back to ghosting then it stops. I just accept it. It's not because of me, it's how she is. One time she came to visit me when I was living further downtown and we went out to eat in Chinatown. I asked her a simple question and she had a complete fit. Like she held her breath. I just finished my Raman and waited for her to finish. She was mad. I then paid for my meal and waited to see if she was able to pay for hers. Then when we left I looked back and watched her walk away in the crowded city streets, betting that she wouldn't look back, and she didn't. Never phased me. She does have some power and only if she changed, it would have to be persistent. Still I respond to her calls, which is usually when she needs something. Right now I have her broken laptop, I swapped her NVME drive into my laptop and gave it to her for the time being so she has her files and settings etc. Her laptop needs a new screen and a new bottom casing cause the casing broke and tugged the cable to the screen damaging it. She's also struggling living at home with her family so I might not even charge her for the parts that get replaced. I also had her laptop for half a year I think while she enjoys mine lol.

Some would say I'm being dunked on, or being used, while others would say I'm being a good friend and she's really fucked up, or I'm too nice. Personally I wouldn't be too proud undoing the kindness, then tossing her out into the cold so she cannot even connect to the internet while not able to afford a computer. She can turn cold yet again, it'll never be my undoing. There's also a strong sense of divinity with how I handle this type of person. I have credited her for being a cog in this transformation I've made, so cutting her off would be a weakness in a sense. 

Med used to come to me about Chapo, in here and in discord. The #1 thing I told her is how she needs to put herself first and to prioritize the fact she doesn't want to feel the way she does, which is in distress. But she places her desires first, and hoped things will change between her and Chapo and she would pay him thousands of dollars for sex. In terms of overcoming crisis, Med seems hopeless. We haven't seen her in quite awhile now, but whatever's going on with her must be quite the spectacle, and even more so IF, she never chose to detach from ways that do not serve her. Some people kill themselves over this stuff. They ask how, I say just gracefully take a loss, put yourself first, but they keep asking how.

LeggaLeggaLegga said: 

Lenalee said: 

Do you know what friends are? 

No. Do I look like I'm not retarded?

 

I'll reply to you later, Spatial.

 My fault, swallow a needle then.

Toby is free to unload on me, he and i have been friendly for years now. Me saying I feel sad that he's experienced a relationship where he felt that his feelings weren't considered or cared for is valid because he is a friend i do care about. So I hope your next drink is nasty as shit legga, you fucking worm. 

Thank you for the story. It's a peculiar relationship that you have with your date.

I don't say this lightly, but I think you're mentally stronger than I am if your story is true. I don't think I've ever thought that way when coming across anyone, so you can take it as a compliment. However, there's one bit I don't understand: Is there a reason why she is your date?

We get to know people better after we make a connection. Like you still learned new things about your wife while you've dated. Maybe things you don't like. We have to put up with people's bullshit or else we'll end the connection.

For someone like me, marriage is a bad idea. Like she can go monkey branch over and bang some other dude, but, if she's banging some other dude after taking half my wealth, THEN, you'll probably see me lose my shit and shatter into a trillion pieces. With that in mind I reckon that in avoiding such mistakes I keep my mental health in check. It's more about the theft or betrayal aspect that someone who has the power to take from us and discard us would do it, after we've invested our limited time and hard earned wealth ( even more time ) into them.

In 2021, Marriage is a bad deal for men in my opinion.

 

What I don't know is most things there is to know. And I do say I don't know, when I don't know.

Well, let me be more specific: Can you name one example of something that causes you discomfort and you are clueless about, and explain why?

I think I did in my previous response above in this post. My greatest fear seems to be commitment, I know why too.
 
 I do get backlash over this from opinionated women and some fruity people who suggest by all means I am to respect women. ( It's not that I don't have any respect for any women, I don't sugar coat it and lie when there are women I don't respect. They are just people and I'll like and dislike who I deem accordingly )
 

 

I think I understand Blanc, she's a lot better these days compared to before. She was way needy before, now she's more chill and less annoying. I'm glad about that.

 

That's nice to hear. I tried reaching out to Blanc several times in the past, but I didn't get much back-and-forth. I was a little annoyed at the time, because I spent a lot of time reading her posts and responding to them, only to see that my posts were ignored. Then again, it's not like she owes me.

 It takes a long time for Blanc to open up to anyone. Her and I don't have a lot of back and forth, and sometimes she'll ignore my posts too, or I think last time she ignored my post, whatever it was about. She added me to discord and we still don't really talk, that alone took years. 

I never thought of it as a problem when her and I never spoke at all. If you want her to open up in any way, give her a stone cold critique whenever she posts her art. If it's music grade the whole things including every variation. And by that I mean be honest about it and outline what's good and what's bad about it. The other stuff she posts, like the makeup and shit, stay away from those, she's a part time lesbian and probably doesn't want to see straight guys in there, except Trypt.

From what I understand Tryptamine found her perplexing as well, like he never got any action from her. HOWEVER, it's also likely they did bang but choose not to share it in the community because we would make fun of Blanc for having sex with a man because she argues she's a lesbian.

She likes to get crafty for holidays so a good approach would be to ask her what did she do for Easter. Of course if she reads this, then she probably won't respond. Basically when you see Blanc come out swinging, spar with her on the same level, but don't cut her down. She may out of the blue tell the entire chatlog to go fuck themselves, so say fuck you too in return and score some points.

Toby is free to unload on me,

Who is Toby? Can I throw my load on you too?

he and i have been friendly for years now. Me saying I feel sad that he's experienced a relationship where he felt that his feelings weren't considered or cared for is valid because he is a friend i do care about.

I still have no idea who Toby is. It could be Tony, but I'm clearly too stupid to make the connection.

So I hope your next drink is nasty as shit legga, you fucking worm. 

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