I've been broken, but not particularly spiteful. There are a few reasons why I'm like this, firstly, I'm a theist and I do believe everything we do is bring monitored and we'll have to answer for it. Secondly I've dealt with a lot of foul play and I think of it as ugliness.
It's nice for you if you're a theist. I'm jealous. I'd love to believe.
It's interesting that you didn't ever feel spiteful. I imagine becoming spiteful would be a natural reaction to being betrayed so many times. Maybe your parents were good to you.
For example I have TC constantly calling me a woman hater and always raising that aspect, meanwhile I treat all the women like I do anyone else, and I treat people better than he does. He also calls me a liar without saying what I'm lying about, which is a sign of false gossip. I recognize what he's really doing but I don't feel the need to react, probably because I wouldn't respect anyone who follows him, so his foolery is more of a service that weeds out people I shouldn't waste too much time on.
I like TC. Despite the fact that he sees things in a little black-and-white manner when he gets into that 'mode', I think he has several redeeming qualities. He's not a bad person, either, just a bit broken. I can't say I relate to him, though. I distrust him based on his past behavior. Not because he's a bad person, but because I'm not convinced he can control himself. However, he's quite insightful, and he cares about people deeply.
I wouldn't suggest Jim is worthy of any praise, "his death would in fact save countless people from a lot of grief." ( That's not even a spiteful thing to say, it's s fact ). Other day he was carrying on about molesting a child, and how her sounds turned him on and drove him to rape her more aggressively.
I condemn those acts. However, there are other things about Jim that I find fascinating. For example, how really based on his past life he should be in a dumpster in Turkey slitting his wrists, but instead he's traveling the world and exploring things that most people only talk about online.
I think the reason he acts that way is that his brain is wired to reward him for it. I feel like if I had taken a few steps in another direction in my past life, I'd probably be very much like Jim is. I feel like there's reward for me in watching someone suffer, and I feel it's draining for me not to do harmful things to others. Having said that, I don't really harm people.
As for Alice, she's curious. You know she used to be a druggie but then decided to change her life?
For someone like me, marriage is a bad idea. Like she can go monkey branch over and bang some other dude, but, if she's banging some other dude after taking half my wealth, THEN, you'll probably see me lose my shit and shatter into a trillion pieces.
I could see how that might happen. Personally, I've never cared about money one way or another. I married my wife because she wanted to marry me and I intend to be with her for the rest of my life anyway.
More to follow later.
Leftover-Lena steps to boyfriend:
1 Stop talking about me;
2 Stop being repulsive;
3 Change underwear >1 month;
4 Find people in your league
