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I think he gave up on trying to get a debate victory, so he is trying to get you to lash out to get a "win", like women do.

I've asked him privately if I've done something to offend him. However, he says that him publicly attributing ungenerous motivation to the things I say and egging me on is because he himself prefers friends like that. However, I don't believe he truly likes it if people gang up on him publicly and insult him.

I think he's smart and original in many ways and he was friendly towards me for years. Not sure what happened. Anyway, I have boundaries and since he's back to rhetorics instead of honestly addressing the issue, I'm through.

He goes through splits like this and stops talking to you for months LOL

Ahh, that's what this is about. 

 You can make it about being something personal if it helps you feel better.

You mean you're giving me permission? 

 Sure

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Blanc said: 

One time I took tryp on a date and he didn’t say anything the entire time and walked four feet in front of me when entering and leaving the building 

 

Not sure why he did that to this day. I think I asked him later why he didn’t talk and he said sometimes I just don’t feel like talking. 

the quirks of tryptamine are very amusing. 

 That is a very interesting experience. It sounds more like he didn’t want to be seen with you. We always had great bonding experiences when walking places. Lots of discussions where we were able to relate to each other. Strangely it was a deeper connection than the cuddling, for me. I guess I just love talking because I like to know what people are thinking because that’s how you really get to know how they think, which is what influences who they are. Talking is a direct window into their soul. Maybe he was nervous around you because he didn’t want you to know who he really is. Maybe he thinks you’re too good for him and I am not, so he felt more comfortable talking to me and scared of talking to you. I like that idea. Let’s go with that one. Makes me feel better about my choices :)

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I think he gave up on trying to get a debate victory, so he is trying to get you to lash out to get a "win", like women do.

I've asked him privately if I've done something to offend him. However, he says that him publicly attributing ungenerous motivation to the things I say and egging me on is because he himself prefers friends like that. However, I don't believe he truly likes it if people gang up on him publicly and insult him.

I think he's smart and original in many ways and he was friendly towards me for years. Not sure what happened. Anyway, I have boundaries and since he's back to rhetorics instead of honestly addressing the issue, I'm through.

 You really think these things? I believe you are mistaken and just trying to not get your feelings hurt by him. Don’t be such a baby. Look at the URL man. You’re not at Disneyland. This is a place to be mean and enjoy yourself. Stop being a baby. You have no friends here. Go get some in real life so you’re not so concerned about what people do here. 

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"Hmm?  ...Bye."

You are reading this. #lastword
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You can make it about being something personal if it helps you feel better.
You mean you're giving me permission?

Sure

Just to put it out there, there is a logical contradiction if he takes it personally when you attribute motivation to his actions and simultaneously claims that it's precisely what he appreciates in true friends when justifying his own actions.

 

You really think these things? I believe you are mistaken and just trying to not get your feelings hurt by him. Don’t be such a baby. Look at the URL man. You’re not at Disneyland. This is a place to be mean and enjoy yourself. Stop being a baby. You have no friends here. Go get some in real life so you’re not so concerned about what people do here. 

Fuck off, whore.

last edit on 5/4/2021 7:21:47 PM
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You really think these things? I believe you are mistaken and just trying to not get your feelings hurt by him. Don’t be such a baby. Look at the URL man. You’re not at Disneyland. This is a place to be mean and enjoy yourself. Stop being a baby. You have no friends here. Go get some in real life so you’re not so concerned about what people do here. 

Fuck off, whore.

How odd, this reply doesn't seem consistent with your character. 

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How odd, this reply doesn't seem consistent with your character.
Hypothetically speaking, if I were to let you get away with insulting me, it would give you further incentive to do it in the future.
last edit on 5/4/2021 9:23:16 PM
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How odd, this reply doesn't seem consistent with your character.
Hypothetically speaking, if I were to let you get away with insulting me, it would give you further incentive to do it in the future.

Hypothetically and historically speaking, keeping this up is just as liable to keep me going. 

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I decided to reply because it's very well written and also I have never seen Tryp so vulnerable before, he usually only listens to us and never gives anything back. 

It's crazy how he has managed to pack so many feelings into one post, from the regrets of not having went anywhere in his life and not having lived his youth to the fullest like he feels the people around him did ,to the feelings of self hatred for not having the courage and willpower to push through in order to go after his goals and things he wanted to experience due to his depression, for not taking more risks, to the insecurity of lagging behind his peers in terms of life progress and experiences, to anger at society for putting expectations of performance and experiences on him (expressed in the form of ascetic cope), and people who he feels are mocking him and looking down on him for these things.

Presumably fueled by how many people around him bragged of travelling different countries, fell in love, risked failure, risked their lives to accomplish their dreams, got heartbroken, got hurt, got into business ventures, did drugs, emotionally bonded, experienced different cultures and religions, experienced new modes of life and thinking, made surplus income, spoiled themselves with it and enjoyed the "shallow" pleasures of life,  partied, while Tryp pissed in bottles, played videogames, talked with girls on chats, cleaned his grandpas house, lived on his grandparents social security, drank to cope with his life and his depression, jacked off,  watched other people live life through youtube streams and lived vicariously through them, and spent his youth on the Internet, which seems to feed into some sort of inferiority complex and an ascetic cope reaction like when the goth kids put down the chad and stacy for being shallow etc.

He deploys ascetic copes to feel better by saying people have not experienced ephemereal spiritual things he did, in the "so what if you travelled? i did astral travel!" fashion, but it's clearly not working, as you can sense the anger and hatred in the post. This does not come from a place of indifference.Just replace the You with I and it describes him and his life almost perfectly. You can also feel hate in it. maybe too much for him to bear it, thats why he has to externalize it and isolate the feeling from the object (him) it is connected to. He is sour graping material things and life experiences he never got to experience, otherwise he would not even write this post, fuck those materialistic shallow plebs right?

But I also see hope and ambition awakened in him, he wants to catch up to his peers, he wants to let go of his fears and mental obstacles, he wants to live the youth he was supposed to  live, he wants to do better in his life and take charge of it, he wants to become a better person. I think rehab is doing way more than alcohol addiction cure, it's also helping him awaken as a person, take responsibility for the trajectory of his life, and prepare him to become an adult and I am excited to see whats next.

It's never too late until you are dead, and there is still plenty of time to live your life and become the person you want to be, you just have to fight through your own mental barriers and wake up, and stop constantly comparing yourself to others, we all have our own journey and it's not a competition.

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last edit on 5/13/2021 7:22:27 AM
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