I was seven when those thoughts occurred and when you’re that young, you can’t just do whatever you want because you have a schedule and no free time. I had to wait to do my research.
At what age did you have an internet connection? I had one at around seven, so in your shoes I'd argue I could have just looked that stuff up.
All I do is tell the truth and you misunderstand it almost all of the time.
I understand what you're trying to say, but I don't agree with much of your self-appraisal.