I think ketamine therapy is a bit scarier because you have to be locked in a room and forced to trip for like 8 hours
imagine doing that for trauma resolution lol
Is ketamine therapy even real? That sounds like a rumor one pot head mentioned to another but ketamine has really serious bodily damaging side effects and i cant imagine a doctor administering that in a therapeutic setting
I can't imagine what you'll become when you're no longer a crybaby, but I think you'll be even more terrible.
I know right. There will be no neediness and insecurity to hold me back.
I think ketamine therapy is a bit scarier because you have to be locked in a room and forced to trip for like 8 hours
imagine doing that for trauma resolution lol
Is ketamine therapy even real? That sounds like a rumor one pot head mentioned to another but ketamine has really serious bodily damaging side effects and i cant imagine a doctor administering that in a therapeutic setting
Unfortunately this guy interviewing her doesn’t have a medical background so he didn’t think to ask much about bodily damage, long term effects, etc.
He just was getting the word out about this uncommon treatment procedure.
In my personal opinion I view this as a last resort for people with really extreme conditions in desperate situations.
I think ketamine therapy is a bit scarier because you have to be locked in a room and forced to trip for like 8 hours
imagine doing that for trauma resolution lol
Is ketamine therapy even real? That sounds like a rumor one pot head mentioned to another but ketamine has really serious bodily damaging side effects and i cant imagine a doctor administering that in a therapeutic setting
Alongside Blanc's response to you, they also administer significantly smaller doses than that of an addict looking to go into the hole.
Today the therapist decided to not use EMDR because CS just left and she said I might not be emotionally ready for it.
We talked about how she thought I was gonna rape her when I went in for a kiss after the last session and my stabbing wounds, then talked about the kid. I revealed my and CS's pedo tendencies to her. She said she had pedo clients before so she's not suprised. She asked me if I'm worried CS might do something to our kid. I said yes. She advised me to contact CPS in California with messages of CS admitting to wanting to molest kids.
She told me the story of a rich pedophile that did some sessions with her. Apparently he was British. Color me shocked.
She mentioned how CS laughed about her brothers death in therapy. Told me that she's in denial about her pedophilia tendencies and emotional issues while I'm open and vulnerable which gives me more hope to recover. This was def good for my ego.
She said that me being into little girls was me being stuck mentally at an age when I had a 7 year old gf (same age me) and my mom beat me brutally, which caused me to stay mentally 7 and be attracted to girls the age I was in when I was abused most severely. And that CS is into little girls is because she's identifying with the little girls (she was also raped)
I told her about the turkish girl I met yesterday and she told me to not date until I am fully recovered because I'll be repeating the same mistakes.
She told me that I am attracted to people like my mother (narcissistic, insecure, dominant, immature) regardless whether they are boys or girls, and that she's going to help me break the pattern thru CBT when I'm done with EMDR.
She said I'm showing symptoms of BPD and CS, NPD. I'm going to continue into EMDR next week.
I am hopeful that I'll become a healthier happier person and find a good healthy woman to marry and have the family I never felt I had. A real family. Finally.
Congrats on getting help jim i’m Really proud of you
i highly recommend finding some reading materials (with your therapists approval) and like workbooks and stuff when you start the CBT, it really helped me stay on track and feel like i was *doing something* to improve which gave me hope, but also the workbooks themselves really were very enlightening and therapeutic for me.
If you want I can show you the workbooks I used.
I also highly recommend finding reading materials or maybe online blogs etc. that help you remain hopeful and inspire you to keep going on your journey, or help you understand your diagnosis better.
for me I read a lot and researched a lot about ptsd from good sources and this helped me to understand strange symptoms i was having or had experienced in the past that i had no idea were even related to this disorder. This helped me to feel less ashamed of the strange behaviors that come with ptsd.
In your case researching both bpd and ptsd i think would be great for you, as well as about the pedophilia. And whatever else interests you.
I can try to dig up what i found on ptsd that helped me, i had kept all the links on a thread on old SC but unfortunately they’re all gone. The only thing i have now is a book i’m Working through alongside my addiction recovery materials- it’s a book that ACA (adult children of alcoholics- a group i attend sometimes) members use but it’s for c-ptsd. I can show you this book too if you want. It’s *very* enlightening and relatable. Really really helps you to not only understand yourself better but to move past all that shit.
Congrats on getting help jim i’m Really proud of you
i highly recommend finding some reading materials (with your therapists approval) and like workbooks and stuff when you start the CBT, it really helped me stay on track and feel like i was *doing something* to improve which gave me hope, but also the workbooks themselves really were very enlightening and therapeutic for me.
If you want I can show you the workbooks I used.
I also highly recommend finding reading materials or maybe online blogs etc. that help you remain hopeful and inspire you to keep going on your journey, or help you understand your diagnosis better.
for me I read a lot and researched a lot about ptsd from good sources and this helped me to understand strange symptoms i was having or had experienced in the past that i had no idea were even related to this disorder. This helped me to feel less ashamed of the strange behaviors that come with ptsd.
In your case researching both bpd and ptsd i think would be great for you, as well as about the pedophilia. And whatever else interests you.
I can try to dig up what i found on ptsd that helped me, i had kept all the links on a thread on old SC but unfortunately they’re all gone. The only thing i have now is a book i’m Working through alongside my addiction recovery materials- it’s a book that ACA (adult children of alcoholics- a group i attend sometimes) members use but it’s for c-ptsd. I can show you this book too if you want. It’s *very* enlightening and relatable. Really really helps you to not only understand yourself better but to move past all that shit.
Would love that. You're such a tart blanc, thanks! <3
Very nice
thanks daddy
I'm really proud of you jim.
Thank you cute
