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Sorry if my responses in here were scattered sounding I’m on a boat and not really paying perfect attention to what I’m writing but you get the gist 

Denial ain't just a river in Egypt Blancy...

Blanc said: 

Sorry if my responses in here were scattered sounding I’m on a boat and not really paying perfect attention to what I’m writing but you get the gist 

Blanc, you need to read over your older material to see the sheer dissonance we're otherwise observing between your different points on the timeline. 

You're doing denial copes right now, but worse than that it seems to be happening on it's own rather than as a purely reactive sense of will. You're used to reinventing the narrative without even watching your own hand in it, and this right now is a blatant example. 

It's your absolute refusal to listen to other people if they aren't otherwise enabling you or patting you on the back that makes you too stubborn to see through your own delusion. In the field this would be seen as "low functioning", except in your case you reinforce the delusion with Youtube from some part of you recognizing how delicate your ego is. Even linking you your own topics and quotes only goes as far as resonating with the portions of yourself you'd prefer to look at. 

You're telling yourself what you'd prefer to be the case, always. You ought to not trust that, and rather than blame "MPD" or some other myriad of disorders cobbled up from your need to find answers to the point of Hypochondriasis (or arguably Munchausen), you ought to look at how it's really you constantly re-convincing yourself of different narratives, typically in the form of typing out self-assurances where you insist that you "are dissociating" and "don't have feelings over this" while we see you blatantly flipping out. Even your rationality over what's going on often contradicts your older narratives rather than showing a natural learning curve. 

There's others on the website that reinvent narratives similarly that I'm sure you've noticed. 

Blanc said: 

Sorry if my responses in here were scattered sounding I’m on a boat and not really paying perfect attention to what I’m writing but you get the gist 

 you can run but you can't hide from the real world / reality

Blanc said: 

We had fun times together as friends but, he has changed significantly since then. I keep waiting for the old him to return but it never does. He is different now. Much more black pulled and curmudgeony, especially toward me. 

You aren't waiting for "the old him", you're waiting for the effect he used to have on you. 

If anything you're seeing a more honest picture of who he is now. 

At a certain point someone wants to drive you away, you should just let them. 

He's been trying to go and you won't let him. 

For fucks sake you even interrupt chat any time you feel like he's ignoring you with a big text-tantrum. 

Thats Why I don’t understand why people keep talking about the idea of us as if it’s not dead and gone. He’s not even the same person anymore, and I’ve grown a lot since then. It was literally two years ago. 

We're just conceptually parroting back your own words. 

So I just don’t understand why people keep talking about the “couple” idea as if we were an item when we haven’t been for a very long time and he doesn’t want there to be.  

I can literally link topics you've made that would give people that impression. 

You only seem to hold onto the memories that are related to your current mindset while denying the parts that don't work with it. It makes you look like you're doing some messed up Amnesiac variant of a Madonna/Whore complex with all this rampant self-denial. 

No one here is the bad guy or has done anything horrifically wrong to the other. We just didn’t work out. I’m not right for him he doesn’t like me for who I am lol and he isn’t right for me because I only liked the sober him. Just because we had decent chemistry it doesn’t mean anything if he has lost the drive to pursue it and if we argue more than we enjoy each other’s company.

I'm sure we'll be hearing about how great you two are together once it becomes Spring. 

Blanc said: 

Because if you know you know.

That's the thing: We know, you don't. 

he doesn’t even remember half the things he’s said to me or half the conversations we’ve had.

You don't remember like 9/10 of it, you always appeal to how the talk made you feel without context. 

Blanc said: 

Why do you do badly want me to be the bad guy? I’m not going to sit here and defend myself to an internet troll for hours. But yeah if this is the story you want to spin on me, and distort the truth to suit your own perrogative, then what’s the point. 

You were raised by someone who really badly damaged the relationship you and the female figure in your life and you often try to paint a lot of women in this light, the same light you see the person who hurt you in some way, as. 

And I understand because I’ve been there, seeing reality in a distorted way because of shit you went through.

 

Its okay to have this sort of reaction. I am just one of the most open people here so it’s easiest to Make someone who is very open, into a vulnerable target for judgement. 

It’s the internet. It happens. But, the person you are describing, that’s not how I am at all. 

it’s just the way you’re seeing things, and everyone sees things differently and that’s okay. All I can do is continue to be open and honest and live my authentic life. And not worry about the  judgement and perception others have of choose to have. 

ive done what I can to clarify as best I can but... yeah. I dunno what else I can do 

 

and I’m not trying to invalidate anyone’s opinions. We all have got a right to our own individual opinions and yeah. You do you man. No biggie. No hate. I get it. 

I accept everyone’s opinions as valid 

 

if it weren’t for differing perspectives how could we have progress or change. It’s not about being the most right or the most factual sometimes there is benefit to the sheer variation to provide insight to ourselves and find growth from it in some way. So thanks for sharing your opinions with me and I hope it can make me better or the world a better place in some way. 

 I did not provide info about Jim’s sad childhood so people could use it against him. You’re a mean person. Just because you don’t think he is correct, doesn’t mean you should use his past as ammo to discredit his opinion. You could have just said that everyone’s opinion is valid. There was no need to throw that in his face. You may not be evil, but you do some evil things. He is actually correct. You are very selfish and you treated Trypt poorly and you knew he had issues going into your relationship and you didn’t let him work through them himself, so he went right back to what he was doing, and yes, even got worse. Even if you want him back and he hates himself enough to want you back, I don’t think you are a good match because he needs someone to care about him and not just themselves and their idea of who he should be. Jim is 100% correct, figure out how to care about others in a selfless way and then you can try to win him back. 

Dr. Winner said: 

Blanc said: 

Why do you do badly want me to be the bad guy? I’m not going to sit here and defend myself to an internet troll for hours. But yeah if this is the story you want to spin on me, and distort the truth to suit your own perrogative, then what’s the point. 

You were raised by someone who really badly damaged the relationship you and the female figure in your life and you often try to paint a lot of women in this light, the same light you see the person who hurt you in some way, as. 

And I understand because I’ve been there, seeing reality in a distorted way because of shit you went through.

 

Its okay to have this sort of reaction. I am just one of the most open people here so it’s easiest to Make someone who is very open, into a vulnerable target for judgement. 

It’s the internet. It happens. But, the person you are describing, that’s not how I am at all. 

it’s just the way you’re seeing things, and everyone sees things differently and that’s okay. All I can do is continue to be open and honest and live my authentic life. And not worry about the  judgement and perception others have of choose to have. 

ive done what I can to clarify as best I can but... yeah. I dunno what else I can do 

 

and I’m not trying to invalidate anyone’s opinions. We all have got a right to our own individual opinions and yeah. You do you man. No biggie. No hate. I get it. 

I accept everyone’s opinions as valid 

 

if it weren’t for differing perspectives how could we have progress or change. It’s not about being the most right or the most factual sometimes there is benefit to the sheer variation to provide insight to ourselves and find growth from it in some way. So thanks for sharing your opinions with me and I hope it can make me better or the world a better place in some way. 

 I did not provide info about Jim’s sad childhood so people could use it against him. 

 Then why did you? And all the other info about him that you provided.

Cavalier said: 

Dr. Winner said: 

Blanc said: 

Why do you do badly want me to be the bad guy? I’m not going to sit here and defend myself to an internet troll for hours. But yeah if this is the story you want to spin on me, and distort the truth to suit your own perrogative, then what’s the point. 

You were raised by someone who really badly damaged the relationship you and the female figure in your life and you often try to paint a lot of women in this light, the same light you see the person who hurt you in some way, as. 

And I understand because I’ve been there, seeing reality in a distorted way because of shit you went through.

Its okay to have this sort of reaction. I am just one of the most open people here so it’s easiest to Make someone who is very open, into a vulnerable target for judgement. 

It’s the internet. It happens. But, the person you are describing, that’s not how I am at all. 

it’s just the way you’re seeing things, and everyone sees things differently and that’s okay. All I can do is continue to be open and honest and live my authentic life. And not worry about the  judgement and perception others have of choose to have. 

ive done what I can to clarify as best I can but... yeah. I dunno what else I can do 

and I’m not trying to invalidate anyone’s opinions. We all have got a right to our own individual opinions and yeah. You do you man. No biggie. No hate. I get it. 

I accept everyone’s opinions as valid 

if it weren’t for differing perspectives how could we have progress or change. It’s not about being the most right or the most factual sometimes there is benefit to the sheer variation to provide insight to ourselves and find growth from it in some way. So thanks for sharing your opinions with me and I hope it can make me better or the world a better place in some way. 

 I did not provide info about Jim’s sad childhood so people could use it against him. 

 Then why did you? And all the other info about him that you provided.

She sounds hurt and like she hasnt moved on from Jim, punishing him for getting married and ditching her by revealing sensitive info. At least thats what I would do when I was younger and not on tons of medication. Funsies