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Thank God sociopathcommunity has Turncoat, the Psychiatrist, Psychologist, and Rehab Counselor we all never knew we needed! his sound logic so effectively saves us all from potential error

beautiful angel said: 

Thank God sociopathcommunity has Turncoat, the Psychiatrist, Psychologist, and Rehab Counselor we all never knew we needed! his sound logic so effectively saves us all from potential error

You mean... the logic of admitting to something I'm not good at? 

PalePeach said: 

Glad to hear you have cleaned up your room some, are the piss bottles finally gone?

I had a nuclear stockpile worth. But I'm reducing the numbers.

Sven said: 

cool tryp, what caused the decision?

I woke up one day and hated everything I seen around me (literally). I think I have the capacity to carve out the kind of life I fetishize, but that's impossible if I'm always too drunk to laser-focus. Plus I see others I knew passing me by, and I want to crush all of them.

Xena said: 

Tryptamine said: 

I did this a few days ago. Told my family about it too, so now I'll look like a whimsical hypocrite if I don't hold to it. You'd all get to make fun of me too. I've been far more useful to those around me, and they seem to appreciate it.

I even got most of my room cleaned up. To give perspective, I let it bomb out for nearly 2 years. It rains through the ceiling and the floor boards are fucked. I'll probably get evicted by our landlord. Regardless, I have a sense of optimism for the first time in a long while.

 Excellent  :)

The first things you'll notice when the substances are no longer distracting you, and you run out of hobbies and other things to distract yourself will be the tension in some of your relationships. (The same thing happens when people lose weight, finish school or switch tax brackets, bc humans are such petty creatures. Been there done that.) Your friends and family will change for the worst, so don't let any of them drive you back to dependence on your substances again.

You might have to walk away from some for long enough for them to get used to the new you, and from others permanently.

But stick with your goals, and remember that it's them, not you  ;)

 

Fae will be very helpful. Try to spend more time with her if you can.

Editing shit on mobile is horrible, so I'm not going to bother here. I don't care much about relationships, so on that front I'm pretty fine. I've gotten into some hobbies (programming, meditation, exercise). Maybe they will work, maybe they won't.

Turncoat said: 

I never know how to respond to these sorts of topics. 

No response is an adequate response. My intention was more of a communication of my experience than trying to seek platitudes and aggrandizement of what I think. Criticism is welcome as well.

I'll be watching a judging. 

Tryptamine said: 

Xena said: 

Tryptamine said: 

 

Editing shit on mobile is horrible, so I'm not going to bother here. I don't care much about relationships, so on that front I'm pretty fine. I've gotten into some hobbies (programming, meditation, exercise). Maybe they will work, maybe they won't.

 UGH. I'm not talking about your fuckbuddies lol  Let me state this more plainly.

We have relationships with everybody from the guy who sells us our cold cuts to the people who rent our apartments to us.

Those are waaay more important than the people who suck our dicks.

If you're confident that it won't happen to you bc you've always chosen your friends like a pickpocket chooses his marks, then go ye forth.

All I'm saying is that when I made changes that were big enough to bring me up the socioeconomic ladder with assets that people lose their narc shit about, they tried really hard to push me back down.

And they won't stop at talking if they think they can get away with taking smthg from you.

I'm saying that as you clean up and acquire more shit that will make ppl envy you, they will tryta take anything they can from you, in the dirtiest ways possible. Out of plain spite.

So watch your back and protect your assets.

And stay away from ppl you used to get high with.

I don't think you understood me, but I agree with not letting people take things from me.

Turncoat said: 

Xena said: 

Fae will be very helpful. Try to spend more time with her if you can.

I'm sorry, come again? 

dumb idea indeed. Fae is a covert narcissist who prefers people doing bad and being in trouble (inmates, alcoholics) because it makes her feel in control of them and superior (look at this troubled loser piece of shit, i am so kind for helping him and giving him a chance), and also so she can feel needed. She will not like him doing better because that might mean hes more independent and more likely to not need her support. She might sabotage his progress just so he can rely on her for emotional support and to get her moral superiority supply.

I am proud of you tryp, you will make it. My suggestion is to try to find whatever job and get out of your home environment too though, just to forget about the people around you and live on your own. You will gain a sense of pride from it (and a fear of not being able to pay rent) which will fuel you to stay sober even more.