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 when I say I get dissociative in public and start, "acting out" or "acting whacky" this is what I mean. 

it can range from mild sarcasm and snarky comments, to full fledged joking around like reality isn't even real anymore and a failure to take any given situation seriously by pulling strange pranks on people which only *I'm* in on the joke. 

And this is how I act when I dissociate. It's, bad. It's embarrassing and I had little control over it. 

Grant it, the last time this happened, it was like two years or three years ago? Yeah. So it's rare, and brief. And I have to be under a *very* significant amount of very, very bad stress for this to happen. It's not just out of the blue. 

But yeah it's, a bad reaction to stress or one of my stress reactions. 

I also have an odd response to pain where I start laughing hysterically. In arguments or uncomfortable situations I also start becoming very sarcastic and joking around, and fail to take it seriously as well. 

I have a few other stress reactions. Sometimes I can get depressed by it, other times, I can push through it and then only *afterward* will I feel the weight of it's affects once the said stressor is over. Whether, an emergency situation or, something very emotional? A natural suppression and then release occurs. 

And just to clarify, this is only one type of dissociative experiences I've had, and this is by far the most rare response I've seen in myself. There are other types I've experienced... which I've made a (*working*) whole thread about. Working meaning, I'm still continuing to add to it about the experiences I've had. 

https://sociopathcommunity.com/Forum/Topic/829/1/what-dissociation-feel-like- 

Depression, stress, and dissociation, anxiety- PTSD they're all linked and dynamically affect each other interchangeably and simultaneously. 

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I used to do stuff like he's doing at the end with like texting people random shit as well, it was a way for me to relieve stress but I would do it in random places on the internet. AKA, trolling. But I said the most *random* shit I could think of, ideally eliciting a response. For fun. 

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Basically I have a bit of a silly bone sometimes but, it can get kind of out of hand or like, inappropriate. And I'm overly humorous at times in situations where most people wouldn't expect or want you to be,... LOL and it's funny from a third party perspective but at the same time, it's an actual issue I have where I'm like getting myself in trouble because of it. 

Like in class, or in an argument with my girlfriend for example it can really do some damage. 

If I'm being overly sarcastic and dry, it's also like a repurcussion of depression or just how I deal with social situations I've likely been forced to attend but don't want to because I'm going through it mentally at the time. And that's how I get through it is I get in this state of like, joking around, or, if I'm mad about something but have to keep quiet about it, I will deal with that by letting off the steam in subtle remarks that are sarcasm but, more bitter or dark humor, sometimes a bit slanderous or darting remarks. 

You think you're Eric Andre? 

Turncoat said: 

You think you're Eric Andre? 

 No lol, I've just never found something that represents. how whacky I get when I have a really bad reaction to stress and dissociate from reality. This is kind of like how I act but in really inappropriate situations lol 

Like, everything becomes "funny" and that's how you know I've snapped. 

It's like all social, rules go out the window and I'm just like "whatever, reality doesn't feel real right now, so I'm just going to do absolute random shit" 

and maybe it's a sort of cry for help, the acting out. I don't know. Like, at the time I think it's funny but, it's a result of like pure insanity, severe depression and overwhelming stress, and a feeling of pure and total detachment from reality. 

It's just always been hard to explain but this gives a good example of the sort of haphazard nature and the socially, inept way of behavior that it can look like to other people. Obviously he's doing it on purpose because he's a comedian, and he can stop, when it comes time to. 

But when I'm having one of these "reality isn't real" espisodes, this is how I react and it's difficult to control my behavior at this time- and that, I don't know why. 

That's the hardest part to explain is the fact that I can't totally have control... like, you're genuinely just going a bit insane? 

But anyway this only happened once, very briefly a long time ago. So no, I'm not Eric Andre. I'm talking about, the strange types of dissociation I've experienced, and trying to describe them to other people and give an idea of what it's like, not trying to say I *am* him. 

Blanc said: 

Tryptamine said: 

You don't seem to have been doing anything impactful, novel, or emotionally significant for a while. Getting a 9-5 doesn't count, that's a relative means to an anticlimactic end. It would be more surprising if you weren't morose.

 You're making a big assumption which is that you know everything going on in my life currently... 

Of course I don't. But you must realize you've been blogging on this site.

Tryptamine said: 

Blanc said: 

Tryptamine said: 

You don't seem to have been doing anything impactful, novel, or emotionally significant for a while. Getting a 9-5 doesn't count, that's a relative means to an anticlimactic end. It would be more surprising if you weren't morose.

 You're making a big assumption which is that you know everything going on in my life currently... 

Of course I don't. But you must realize you've been blogging on this site.

 What the fuck more could there possibly be to Blanc besides the multiple hours she spends posting about every detail of her life to a point people say "shut up"or "stop"

Cain said: 

Tryptamine said: 

Blanc said: 

Tryptamine said: 

You don't seem to have been doing anything impactful, novel, or emotionally significant for a while. Getting a 9-5 doesn't count, that's a relative means to an anticlimactic end. It would be more surprising if you weren't morose.

 You're making a big assumption which is that you know everything going on in my life currently... 

Of course I don't. But you must realize you've been blogging on this site.

 What the fuck more could there possibly be to Blanc besides the multiple hours she spends posting about every detail of her life to a point people say "shut up"or "stop"

She claims that it helps her process her thoughts, but she also goes on about how she doesn't read her older entries...

It would be nice if you were more likeable, because sometimes I want to be like "yeah girl I feel you" but then im like oh ugh it's blanc and she's going to try to bulldoze over what could be a normal empathetic exchange with her bland monologues and pretend your ideas and experiences are either hers or not as ______________ as hers and its like dude...............not even worth it

And this is why we cant be friends

but its fine because i dont do girl friendships anyway

Alrighty guys thanks for the input lol

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