The feeling is mutual : b
Systematic stated: source post
On a surface level I can hold decent conversation, am a trustworthy individual and take pride that I adhere to a set of moral values. Nothing could be farther from the truth however, I only abide by these values when it's easy(when I'm not emotional, triggered or sore). I criticize others for behaviors I readily indulge and dismiss any claims of hypocrisy through transparent self justification. Though I like the idea of being honest, I'm not. I'm actively engaged in gossip and drama at all times, I earned the nickname ratvard that way. I share personal information on a whim or I'll wait until they aren't around on the forum anymore to contest me before I publicly share their private information. Oh and don't mention this to me or I'll be obsessed with getting back at you until my ego forgets. Seriously, just ask sugar, systematic, turncoat, crow, alena, tpg, angee, cricket, dnjack or spatial. Well, just ask anyone I've had a minor disagreement with, I'm bitter like this with almost every despute.
Im kind and considerate to some and even offer them advice. This is because I proxy myself into these figures as me when I was younger or my future son, I like to take the condescending father role with them.
I like to talk publicly about how I fight men for a living and perform sexual acts with hundreds of women. But, I still indulge in laughing at others chasing an image. This is of course because I need supply and I need it badly. It doesn't matter if you're fat, skinny, tall or short. Give me praise and I will protect you with my life and excuse everything you do. You could be a 17 year old edgelord or a middle aged, batshit crazy, homeless woman. Females preferred.
fuck wit me 🔫🔫💯💯
Impressive.
I am honoured that you would choose me, Raven. I'll give it a go. If I am wrong about any (or all) of this, please know that I said it with respect.
I am an impulsive, selectively confrontational, courageous person who does not shy away from breaking with convention. I sometimes project a very callous front; my self-preservation required it. But there is a side of me that is tremendously nurturing and loving.
Rather than allowing them to break me, I've permitted the hardships and abuse I endured to sharpen me to a fine point- incisive and bold. But they left me with paralyzing insecurities that I would rather escape from through procrastination and a lack of emotional investment, than work through. And that is a shame, because I possess all of the qualities of an exceptional leader, with my capacity to be assertive, decisive, and to read people well, so as to accurately identify their strengths, weaknesses, and underlying motivations. But I shy away from my gifts in this area, because deep down, I lack confidence. Yet I am also proud. So rather than acknowledge this, I cover it up with laziness, and a loss of motivation for the projects I begin, because I fear failure. I fear success, too- but only because I may not be able to sustain it- which is just another manifestation of my fear of failure.
My pride sometimes hinders my relationships, but it has also helped me to create and maintain reasonable boundaries with individuals who would otherwise trample all over them, so it has served as a defense mechanism, too. I am inherently suspicious and wary of people, because I have been betrayed and horrifically mistreated by those with whom I should have felt safest. This translates into a deep and well-founded distrust of institutions and authorities- but also into unfounded mistrust of people who truly have my well-being and best interests at heart. This causes me to keep people at arm’s length, and impedes genuine intimacy.
I am highly intelligent and clever. I have a good sense of humour. I’ll fuck around, and troll with the best of them, but in all the ways that matter, I am a deeply loyal, ethical and principled human being. But don’t cross me, because I can be as vicious and vindictive as I can be kind.
The striking duality in my nature, juxtaposed with the fact that I sometimes suffer from schema mode distortions in which my self-protective instincts are triggered unnecessarily, make me an unpredictable force to be reckoned with. I will thoroughly obliterate anyone who hurts what is precious to me with an ease that would chill Ted Bundy snacking on someone’s femur. ;)
I am strong and beautiful, inside and out.
WW3 stated: source post
turncoat
While I was once unsure of how to go about things beyond gathering information, I am now a mirror of those unlike myself meant to draw ire. I go online and study the tactics of those who've succeeded in riling up those before me and wield them as both my sword and my shield. I prefer to remain an unknown, but quietly lurking won't always give me the answers I seek. I've learned that I don't have to be myself to get the things that I want, so I don't. I don't need people to know who I am and I prefer it that way, for remaining unknown is safer.
I am The Fool from the Shakespearean play that is Sociopath-Community. I see what others do not see, before from appearing as an aspie dunce, a child-like blank slate who couldn't answer questions but knew how to keep them talking, now through cheap imitation that yields the truth out of others through drama-inducing example. I enjoy taking up the banner of a losing side purely for my own amusement, even though that tends to give away to those who know me well enough who I think the losing side is. The more absurd the argument made, the more someone will be triggered into responding to me, and that bait serves to feed me quite well.
I am who I need to be to see what I aim to find out, and along the way I've found more than enough room to laugh at the idiot narratives I've named my obsession. I don't need to be honest, and if I do, at this point they won't be able to tell the difference anyway.
Cricket stated: source post
Turncoat
I'm smart, a genius even, and successful to the point of loneliness. I like the feeling of power, of feeling desired by others, even if the displays that they show as a result of their awe over me tend to disgust me on some level once I see them as beneath me. I find the average person disappointing, boring, so I seek out unusual company to keep myself stimulated that much longer and that much more. When they are no longer interesting to me, I grow bored of them and toss them aside as another average person in favor of a new one, for people are more than easy enough to replace when the time calls for it and I tend to enjoy the discovery of an explorer more than the longevity of a conqueror. I accept that this is a flaw of mine, but I don't see it getting in the way of my lifestyle, so I see no reason to correct it in lieu of continuing the journey to find someone worth my time, someone who can keep me nourished in stimulation long enough to not starve, someone who continues to draw more questions out of me and keep my interest. It will end soon enough, it always does, but I'm not looking for anything too permanent.
I think I am a sociopath, and have spent the time finding the means to prove it in ways that the other poseurs cannot. I think of myself as an alpha, and use my past successes as boasts of proof. Despite this, I like a challenge, someone who pushes me naturally without it being a means of compensation, for such a thing is obvious quickly after getting to know them. I like to feel like we're earning each other while also feeling desired, embraced for the trophy that I am. I don't mind using my appearance and charisma as a weapon, for they are among my many strengths, and enjoy showing off my current object of affection to bolster how I'm perceived despite how those on this forum don't seem to care very much. I know that I am special, and while I don't think that I need to prove it I find myself continuing to anyway. As much as it may seem that I am trying to prove myself to you, I am really trying to prove myself to me, so your critiques of me mean nothing when compared to how I view myself. I recognize that there's a deep, inner pain, but I'll find that myself just as I've found everything else thus far, as who knows myself better than I do? That journey is mine to take, and no one else's.
I'm a strong and intelligent leader with co-dependent needs, but the world is full of boring idiots who aren't worth my time that force me to feel alone, with or without them around me. While the majority of people are easy enough to use to get the things that I want, those wants are nothing compared to finding someone who can see me for who I really am, appreciate who I really am, and have the means to call me out without going too far. When crossed, I can take it in stride up to a point, but pass that point and I am another person entirely, a rage-monster of pure vengeance and spite who desires their pain to quell my own, so don't. I have the means to take you down, so don't test me.
FireMeetsIce stated: source post
Turncoat
I'm different.
No really, I am. Stop calling me a hipster! Stop laughing at me!
You think I'm funny, huh? Well I'LL SHOW YOU FUNNY! I'LL BE THE FUNNIEST PERSON EVER!
Wait, now I'm obnoxious? WELL GOOD! SERVES YOU RIGHT FOR LAUGHING AT ME! I'LL LEAVE ALL OF MY SHIT AT YOUR DOORSTEP AS A THANK YOU FOR LAUGHING AT ME!
You'll remember me, you'll ALL remember me! Mock my fashion sense will you, mock my hairstyle for looking like a dyke, mock my age as if it makes me immature? I'll mock you all back! You aren't so special, YOU'RE NOTHING! I HATE YOU ALL!
Just kidding fags, you're alright. Don't mind those past fifty posts of spam, don't mind my song lyrics, I'm just like the rest of you. Really, just like the rest of you.
I'm different.
No really, I am. Stop calling me a hipster! Stop laughing at me!
You think I'm funny, huh? Well I'LL SHOW YOU FUNNY! I'LL BE THE FUNNIEST PERSON EVER!
[Rinse, Repeat]
Edvard stated: source post
Crow on the fence [Turncoat]
[Seeing as two people have done Edvard already, I've decided to have it spoken from the perspective of Ed's subconscious]
I'm two people, but I only see the side of myself that I want to see. People denying my primary self, claiming that I am this "other me" is gravely insulting towards my pride, and those times that contradict the real me, who I really am, either are in the past, never happened, or I've justified as my having been emotional. When I am triggered, I am blinded to many things despite my insistence to myself that I'm a great detective. Once the anger is lifted I am my real self again, the self I wish people would solely see the same way that I solely see it. I am kind, honorable, and fair, despite other's claims of my sexism and hypocrisy, but cross me and the gloves come off, and once the gloves are off, so is my head. Behind the gloves are an arsenal of collected information and the willingness to threaten it's use, and when I feel betrayed I am capable of anything, as at that point it's no longer me steering, but my pride. My real self has friends here, but my pride only knows enemies.
I'll never say sorry, and why should I? This is Sociopath Community, it comes with the territory, and those before you took it with strength. I like to rip people a new one and challenge them to live up to my standard, to back up their bluffs, to not have their tail between their legs and be a chicken. However, if I were to encounter my match I'd never give him a moment's rest. I hate that which I see out of others that reflect the aspects of myself that I am sensitive about because I need to be that blind to them. I cannot accept that these traits are a part of me without losing the optimism that I value so strongly. What you see as hypocrisy is actually a subconscious self loathing that I must avoid at all costs if I am to continue being the glorious Edvard. I shall forever remain a duality as long as I cannot accept this other side of myself, and the anger will only continue to mount as people reflect the traits I hate about myself, forcing me to face those truths that I'd rather leave buried.
The last person I'd ever want to meet is myself, for that person would be my greatest enemy, my greatest reminder, and hurt the most through being too relatable to accept. I enjoy a good fight, but the cuts need to not pierce too deeply, otherwise I'll black out and stop being myself.
ThenFuckit stated: source post
Turncoat
"I don't care". This is what I tell people, but this is more for me than it is for them. I'm stubborn, slow to adjust, humble, and believe myself as more dangerous than I am from past fears. My anger is my enemy, but rather than face it head on I store it in a box and walk away from the source of it in favor of newer, better things. I have a set idea of what works and doesn't work, and while I'm unlikely to change my viewpoint I am open to having it challenged by those I respect, by those willing to go as far as I am in the discussion. What works for me works for me, but somehow what they're doing works for them too, and this makes me curious.
I form my opinions on people quickly through impression and hold onto those views hard. I'll defend those I like and whimsically attack those I don't, but I don't plan on investing too much into it beyond the minimum amount required to laugh at it. Investment is too much for me, for that is a gateway for anger to spring, so I choose to keep my distance while slowly allowing those around me to grow on me. I respect intelligence, how one writes, the strength they carry behind their words, and consistency, and my strong suit for discussion lies within history and assessment. What appears as a lack of dimensions in some areas is somewhat that, but it's mostly me holding myself back instead of letting myself be put out there, as that'd risk letting someone get to me in a way that I'm not ready for.
I need to be ready for anything I'm facing, otherwise I'd prefer to not face it at all. That doesn't mean I won't, but I'm not going to do something I don't enjoy if I don't have to.
'aspie dunce' is closer to my real personality than you think
Turncoat stated: source post
FireMeetsIce stated: source post
Turncoat
I'm different.
No really, I am. Stop calling me a hipster! Stop laughing at me!
You think I'm funny, huh? Well I'LL SHOW YOU FUNNY! I'LL BE THE FUNNIEST PERSON EVER!
Wait, now I'm obnoxious? WELL GOOD! SERVES YOU RIGHT FOR LAUGHING AT ME! I'LL LEAVE ALL OF MY SHIT AT YOUR DOORSTEP AS A THANK YOU FOR LAUGHING AT ME!
You'll remember me, you'll ALL remember me! Mock my fashion sense will you, mock my hairstyle for looking like a dyke, mock my age as if it makes me immature? I'll mock you all back! You aren't so special, YOU'RE NOTHING! I HATE YOU ALL!
Just kidding fags, you're alright. Don't mind those past fifty posts of spam, don't mind my song lyrics, I'm just like the rest of you. Really, just like the rest of you.
I'm different.
No really, I am. Stop calling me a hipster! Stop laughing at me!
You think I'm funny, huh? Well I'LL SHOW YOU FUNNY! I'LL BE THE FUNNIEST PERSON EVER!
[Rinse, Repeat]
ROFL