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I thought I was certain what I would diagnose everyone here with, ages ago. I know now that I know nothing. I couldn't even diagnose myself properly. The diagnosis I recently received was nothing like how I perceived myself, and proved every diagnosis I received in the past to be wrong as well. Now that I've done better research on the diagnosis I recently received, I can't believe how fitting it is in too many ways to count, and everything about me makes complete sense now. But now I don't know how to make sense of everyone else I thought I'd figured out. Everywhere I looked, all I could see was narcissism. Now I know that's only because it was a fixation for me, and not necessarily a reality. 

I guess what I'm trying to say is, I just see a bunch of forum personalities now. Some genuine and true to their offline selves, and others a facade. 

I diagnose Judas aka Terra aka Xena with schizophrenia

I haven't seen her around lately.

I think most people class me as a narc

Sounds a bit obsessive in your compulsions...

I know this! I used to do the same thing when I was much younger. I still do it to a degree,  but a much lesser one.  It's an obsession with fairness and balance. A comfort in ritual. A knowing there's a predictable outcome. But it turns into irony instead. 

Trying to figure out if you are normal or not is a pointless effort imo.

Just identify what you want and why you can't be what you want, then work on your problems one by one. Doesn't matter what the issue is. I guess you can still try to use some generic label to explain it faster for others thought. But that comes after you identify the problem and start working on it, because at that point you can be sure its a real problem.

Might not be easy to identify how to fix the problem, where to start. Trial and error or ask for help is only options i see.

I wouldn't go as far as "special snowflake", but my gut feeling can't ever just accept myself. Something always feels off, unfamiliar, wrong. When nothing appears to be wrong, it's in my nature to keep looking until I either find or invent something (in the form of ocd nonsense usually).

There is no adjusting, just knowledge.

Edit: Generalized Anxiety sums it up pretty well, but mine I'd say is a symptom of a larger problem.

Mee: Affluenza

With this statement i can only diagnose you the same way.