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That's the most convincing self proclaimed psychopath post in years. Maybe ever.

I'm not a psychopath, but rather I consider myself a graduate of emotional mastery. In that I may come across as callous. When I started seeing how the world is programmed to be consumed by their own ego, I changed. I grew tired of it to a point where I just started telling people I lost the drive to really care about the temporary petty things that just passes. ( It's actually wisdom for a better mental health when I think about it )

In 2014 I lost about 5 people. For my friend, they had a memorial at the house, from the time I arrived at the door there was no pretending, no comforting the Mother and Family, I just walked in and was like, "never thought it would be that guy", they were cool about it too, we never even brought it up most of the time, we just dug in and went on to have a good time. This is healthy and genuine, unlike people who carry on like they were taught by the movies when they lose people. When someone came to me crying about it, and saying how they never cried in years, I just told them to enjoy it then. The guy looked at me and his face unexpectedly  lit up, and his cries were garnished with gratitude. We were so plastered that day.

Same with my Father. Buried him in Trinidad, and over there the culture is more celebratory about death. Laughing and cracking jokes before sealing the casket and burying it, some cried etc. I never felt the need to put on a show for anyone, and no one came down on me about not shedding any tears. Except maybe one person, but it really doesn't mean anything or hold any weight. I straight up said yes, I never felt like crying before many people.

The point I'm trying to make, Nia. You can get away without faking emotions.

Those who make you feel good about yourself. What is it about them ? Are they doormats, or like yes men ?

Do you go by Diana ?

I do have some long term friends. My longest friendship goes back 11 years. I think it is because we dont see each other too much and her way of thinking is very challenging. She also knows about some of my narcissistic traits, which is inevitable if you know someone for such a long time. However, she doesn`t seem to mind. 

Sure there are benefits to acting the part when it's beneficial. In the case of employer and employee, it's good to get on the boss's good side buy putting on a song and dance. Almost everyone does it, even if they dislike the boss.

When it comes to emotional aspects such as signs of affection, or what should we do when someone close dies. Well, these things aren't even real displays in the human condition, but programming. Kissing has only been adopted as a sign of intimacy, without learning about it, it'd have never be passed down the generations, while some cultures never practiced it until more recent . Same thing with the "concept" of how people are expected to behave, or react to situations. It's all the same. The thing is, when you act the part, psychopath, as you say you do it well, and you do. The gestures and details of your motions and expressions seem to filled with what society teaches to be the way we are, it's magnetic for the given ego when someone intentionally acts.

You're sharp and you're as the belief of how an aged psychopath is suppose to be wiser and less impulsive, and you probably already know what I'm getting out of the way.

If it suits you to play sad when it's time, then do it. I'm just saying people can still admire someone who just acts civilized without the expected drama. From an emotional aspect, no dramatic play is better than too much play.

One question though. If you were 100% independent. That is, you don't need anything from any of them. Would you maintain your relations with them ?

Rather if they are intellectually at a high level but still below mine. So that interesting discussions can be lead but they will in the end be convinced by me. I wouldnt call these people doormats even though they serve my purposes. But the main thing is I still provide some emotional comfort which is beneficial to them. So it is somehow a give-take relationship only that they dont know that to me, my interests overweigh theirs. No I dont go by Diana. Are you implying something? 

>you actually read all of that shit

faggot

I dont tend to overstep the range of emotional drama. I sense whenever it is appropriate and suits my intentions. And I am mostly subtile, especially with closer friends. But with rather strangers which share their stories, mine is always the one that gets most attention. Even though it is mostly just a lie. It very much depends on the context. It is for sure not beneficial if a relative of my friend died and I am the one crying. It needs to be displayed correctly, otherwise it bites back. 

I do think I am more functional than some. Maybe because I see a bit further than others. And yes, sometimes it sure would not be needed to put on a mask. But as I mentioned before, when it is not beneficial to me then there is no point anyways. Except when it puts me in the center of attention, preferably in a positive way. Its like a one man (woman) show to me. Mostly life is boring me, because I feel a lack of excitement. Manipulation is indeed something I like to do even if it is not absolutely necessary. However, its just if there is nothing else that gains my attention and I dont aim to hurt somebody. It is only to prove my ability to myself. Relationships sometimes are hard to maintain. Especially when they are demanding. As in requiring a lot of listening and commitment. I am not completely independent so I do need favors or support from others which might be the reason that I still engage so much. If I would be truly independent, I think I would break most bonds since many of them annoy me. Others however make me feel important, smart or powerful which are the ones I would tend to keep around. Some also might be challenging. I like challenges, especially since I use to win. Many former friends of mine have been trashing about my ignorance and cold-heartedness, because once I dont need them anymore or if they lose their value to me I just drop them. They tend to get real hurt or angry, which sometimes is unfortunate if they then ruin other friends of mine that are still desirable to keep around. I would not care about their feelings or whatever gossip they think they have to share, but if it is getting in my way it gets annoying.So I have to work on my way of letting them down. Which sometimes just seems like way too much effort for one stupid individual. 

Question: why you assume it is defensive? 

because, boohoo.. you are not the only pscho here? 

You think I'm boring because I'm not giving you the validation you came here seeking. 

If you think I'm wrong, then what was your reason for creating this thread?

You are actually getting boring.