I'm glad you're alive.
Hey sin. Don't try n kill yourself any more kid. If you think life is boring a pointless just try to find something to do. Get off the computer find some friends or something. Because, what if when we die, we are aware that we are dead, and there is shit fuck to do. That's one of my worst fears. Eternal boredom after death. I'll take being alive any day. At least whIle I'm alive I KNOW I can find some stimulation.
Given the fact these people are trying to discourage suicidal behavior, it might be worth considering. I think you should be angrier at the world instead of giving in to defeat. No matter the sentiment, staying alive means you win. Fuck these people. Fuck those people. Fuck anyone that tells you different. (Not literally fuck them, unless it helps.)
What did you end up telling them, and how did they end up using it?
i didn't say a lot, which is my usual behavior, but also because it's always hard to describe what's going on inside my head. they mostly seemed frustrated at the lack of information.
Who do you think would have done a better job? Their job's to try to help you help yourself, but if they're the only ones on board they can't do their jobs.
i don't want anyone doing any job, the whole point of this little episode was to die, right?? and i still haven't accomplished that goal. and anyone trying to help me help myself is just standing in my way at this point. i'm finished.
i think my depression is getting worse.. all of today i've felt like shit. except for this afternoon when i was reinstalling linux and configuring everything to work exactly perfect, then that was satisfying for a while. then i went back to feeling like shit. whatever though, i have a sweet new system. fast, too.
