No seriously, kill yourself. Otherwise you will grow up to be a societal leech whose only contribution to humanity was posting gay shit on the internet.
what's happened so far today:
stayed up until 4:30 last night
have mom wake me up at 9 the next morning to get a blood draw
sit there while they collect a million tubes of my blood
get home finally, be on computer
smash my fist into my arm just to feel the pain
have lunch and then fall into bed and go straight to sleep from sheer exhaustion
wake up at one in the morning
refresh sc and see absolutely nothing that interests me
write like two lines of code and then get bored of it
lurk /r9k/ for an hour
find the motivation to get my ass off the couch and grab myself a bagel, a hard boiled egg and an apple from the fridge upstairs
type this while eating
sit here contemplating suicide and peeling the hard boiled egg onto the floor since i'm too lazy to get up and grab the trashcan that's two feet away from my toes
twist my arm back and forth and it still hurts