I have a problem with your ending. It was seen to me as a defensive ending. Like... "yeah I do shifty things that drive people away, but..." There should never be a "but" involved in taking responsibility for ones own actions. It shows you still need others to share in the blame for you to feel good about it. The truth is, if you're always behaving in a manner that is self-serving, and you don't genuinely care enough about people to feel bad when you do things to drive them away-chances are you wouldn't know what a real friend looks like if they bit you in the ass. You are projecting when you speak about other people's real intentions when you only let them get close enough to you to have a superficial relationship in the first place.
"It's good to see you take constructive criticism so well, Syst. It shows that you aren't opposed to someone challenging your reality or image. :)"
He's been here for over a year posting topics that not all people agree with without being aggressive about it. I think he would have cracked by now if that weren't the case. 