Mind games. Disordered People especially ones with PD's play them like its something of second nature. The believe by outsiders is that we do it for and yes I will admit that some of it is for fun. The part no one likes to talk about is how it's also a method of coping for us disordered folk. It's our way of ensuring we aren't fucked with or played ourselves. Not healthy people. I understand kust how wrong it is and yet unconsciously I do it.
I play lay games with people I care about and that makes me question myself a lot. Why play if I care thats i question I have been asking myself and the answers are so scattered.
Intimate relationships and important friendships. Why play? I'll tell you some of it is tests making sure you aren't here to mess with me or here to stay. Other times I feel you did something questionable and now instead of talking about it I have to punish you, honestly sometimes i'm just bored and I wanna fuck with the person. Not okay. If you hurt me in anyway I don't keep grudges or walk away I don't have emotional recollection which makes it hard to remember why I was mad or if I was ever truly mad. So if I care I don't hold grudges but I will ensure you sting more than I did. Not for revenge but so you learn respect and understand how it feels. I sometimes play Mind games with people because it's a power trip to show them if I wanted I could have the upper hand and they can't do anything about it. Sometimes I need to prove they are not in charge and not that I am per se but I could be if need be.
Tell me me about why you do it guys