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"So you're just going to sit there playing Stalker and hoping your obsession will go away?"

Again, inaction sometimes takes more strength than acting, especially when it comes down to dependencies. I've been straight without therapy, on my own for a little over half a year now. Resisting urges, blocking those thoughts out and distancing myself to allow that bond to get thinner. It hasn't been pleasant.

"Your obsession exists because you idealize your target, and that's because she's been unreachable for you"

I'm fond of her personality, but beyond that there isn't much. It's never been about idolizing, it's always been about protecting.

"No amount of sitting on your ass dramatically "beating your obsession" (lmao) will do the trick as would, you know, dating the woman and spending time with her, and seeing her for what she really is."

It's been doing the trick so far, this is the longest I've ever held out. I don't plan on ruining the record either. 

"However, this isn't about the girl, it's about you and your love for this "tormented stalker" image."

I've been avoiding speaking about my old habits for awhile now but even when I did it was more focused on getting outside advice to an issue I couldn't solve. Tormented? hah, I used to brag about how much I loved that life.

"The way I see it, it's been a part of your mentality for so long you're too afraid to actually do something about it and grow (up) out of it."

 6 years is a lot of memories and good amount of triggers. It takes a lot of self control not to load up her info when it only takes seconds to do. 

Going to her directly would worsen the issue. But, let's say I get back with her again and everything works as you said.  I'm having trouble holding these urges now, it's only magnified when things between me and her get official. The answer is not to go after her, but to move on.

So you're just going to sit there playing Stalker and hoping your obsession will go away? Your obsession exists because you idealize your target, and that's because she's been unreachable for you. No amount of sitting on your ass dramatically "beating your obsession" (lmao) will do the trick as would, you know, dating the woman and spending time with her, and seeing her for what she really is. That's how infatuation goes away to leave either indifference or smth more behind it.

However, this isn't about the girl, it's about you and your love for this "tormented stalker" image. The way I see it, it's been a part of your mentality for so long you're too afraid to actually do something about it and grow (up) out of it.

It's for me, I couldn't care less. expression through text relieves compulsions. If people enjoy it, good for them. I apologize if you're angry, I know attention does wonders for people like you.

no, i'm asking what ed's version does for you. just him, bending you over and dominating you and that being it. doesn't turn you on huh?

Turncoat

Burger King

Then we would retreat back to my single wide trailer and make sweet love to her.

I figure I have a 50/50 chance that Turn is in fact a woman. fingers crossed

"Being with her and refraining from being a big enough creeper to repulse her and get you rejected, is what would take the greatest strength, not inaction."

That's like telling a pyromaniac to set a house on fire and walk away without watching it burn. It may take more strength but no amount of tolerance is gained, it's lost through the initial action.

Me getting to that point with her and fighting the temptation isn't worth it, the temptations dont lessen they just increase and i'm more susceptible to lapsing back into complete obsession again. 

We meet up at my place, and you follow me into my bdsm basement. I close the door and lick my lips in anticipation of the terrible things I'll do to you. As you gawk incredulously at all of the beautiful implements of torture hanging on my walls, I secure your wrists in handcuffs, before you have the chance to turn around and face me. Taking advantage of the fact that you are emotionally destabilized, I quickly shove you to the floor, and press my stiletto-clad foot onto the back on your head, rubbing your face into the dirt. I grab a flogger, yank your ass up by tugging on your manacled wrists, and whip you viciously while alternately stroking and sucking your cock. After I'm done, and before you cum, I kick you back into the dirt, leaving your wrists handcuffed, so that you'll learn to not pay as much attention to the difference between fantasy and reality. XD

The answer would, indeed, be moving on, but you're not doing a good job at it seeing how this woman keeps coming back into your thoughts. Your thoughts of posting her info here (edit: I thought loading up her info = uploading her info) come from repressed bitterness that can't be any good to you.

Being with her and refraining from being a big enough creeper to repulse her and get you rejected, is what would take the greatest strength, not inaction.

well-stated, Eddie. :-)

so you're not straight without therapy?