you know, i don't usually do this..but yea. it was me.
oh, yes it does! but in my version im holding a leash attached to a tight collar around his neck while he takes me from behind...a collar that can administer painful electrical shocks, that is :) he'll become more violent and angry with each shock, like a wounded animal... and just like an animal he will be tamed eventually ;)
"Gathering up the guts to tell all that to your woman might lead to smth more than online mockery from strangers"
It takes more strength for me to contain myself than it does to approach her. She has her own life, I have no place to guide it.
I have my moments, where I do wish for and even start directly confronting her. But, the thing is with this obsession is that it goes beyond her. If I get her the urges won't stop, I'll become progressively worse and eventually wanting to watch over every aspect of her life.
The issue is with me, if I ever truly want a legitimate relationship with her I need to get rid of the infatuation and deal with the factors that created and now prolong it. I will come to her when I am ready, once this is beaten. Until then I'm biding my time.