Sociopath Community

"i dont function as I should."
How often do you find yourself worrying about that? You labeled yourself as exhibiting "paranoia", is that something you figure a sociopath would carry?

"I cant really connect with people I feel uncomfortable when there is an actual show of love because I dont know how to respond in anyway."
Why do you think you care about that? Is faking it not enough for you?

You could very well be. If you really want to know for sure.  I would suggest you seek a experienced therapist or psychologist to give you there opinion. Chances are they will be reluctant to give you a diagnosis, if they believe you to be antisocial. 

constantly and I dont want to fake anything I just want to feel something for other people other than anger for not being the way I want them to be or for being stupid and weak the list gies on and on

i took some test online. They were either 100% or very close to it. I've been to theraphy many times before for other issues but deep down I always knew that there was something differently wrong with me. 

by the way from outside I am not antisocial at all. I am almost 24/7 surrounded with people seem to be having fun and  I am quite popular but I dont really feel connecting with people.

Private message me then

What's wrong in your eyes with not feeling as much and not connecting with others as much as you'd like? What about it grants you stress?

Why do other people's ineptitudes affect you at all?

by Turncoat

"I cried but only because I thought that I am going to die one day"

I had that very same stress response when I was five, also over a grandparent. After that happened I stopped being able to cry. 

when i was 5~8 years old, my great grandfather died.

i was really upset, because they didnt tell me until he was gone, i asked them why they didnt show me, i had never seen a dead person before. looking back, i think that was so hilarious.

What's so funny about seeking validation over something you didn't understand yet?

its funny, because if i see a little kid ask that question now, it would create controversy/emotional dispute in the surrounding people.