Until recently I never considered myself a real sociopath. I am a 25 years old female. I lost 2 of my grandparents on my mother's side and didn't give the reaction that I was supposed to. I cried but only because I thought that I am going to die one day I even thought that they were relieved because they were very old. so I started thinking some other weird things about myself. People have always been calling me psycho but in a funny way. When I was searching online I found this site and thought it could be useful. Ever since I was a little girl I've always had the tendency to manipulate the people around me. I dont remember feeling sorry for a person unless there is a situation that I feel scared that it might happen to me one day, such as death. I never had a long term relationship, that's another thing that's been bothering me. I cant seem to love people not at all but I become obsessed with them not for their beauty or goodness but for them to be sickly in love with me. I want everyone around me to work for my needs and I dont think there is anything or anyone who is more important than me. When people dont act the way I want them to I become very angry and paranoid and passive-agrresive. I dont care about lying or hurting other people's feelings. And I have a tendency to live reckless life. I get bored too easily of ordinary things such as school and any kind of daily life I like the feeling of fake calmness of alcohol gives me and I always look For excitement. There are so many other things to tell. maybe later. Can any of you guys comment and let me know if you think I might be sociopath and we can talk more detailed.
"I cried but only because I thought that I am going to die one day"
I had that very same stress response when I was five, also over a grandparent. After that happened I stopped being able to cry.
What has you wondering about the possibility of sociopathy? Would a yes or no answer really change you?
Also, what's with your username? It's weird.