i still dont understand how the fact that u had a slightly dys fuctional child hood and that u like music is proof that u have bpd
reading u further the only thing i see is that u have some kind of need to get some kind of label for a personality disorder u dont seem to care which
to be honest ur most likely closer to npd than bpd but i dont see any thing to suggest u might have any kind of dis order at all
That was my first Hitchcock movie and I'm not sure what people your referring to? Me, Alfred Hitchcock or Norman Bates?
But yeah personality disorders are honestly just a crazy thing. I'm just going to stick with the idea that I'm a narcissist. The worst part about being a narcissist or just highly narcissistic though, is envy. I especially envy sociopaths and psychopaths for the ability to not feel emotion. Aside from that I envy myself a lot too which is pretty cool I guess.
I really just want to know why I get so depressed sometimes. I understand depression is a natural response to certain things but it shouldn't happen for no reason and especially to a person like me. If I try to pin point specific reasons, there usually are none. I'm an attractive male, I'm the best producer in my city and just a great individual all around (you could choose to argue wether those things are true or not, but it's irrelevant).
The point is, is that maybe if I could figure out the source of depression and where it's coming from (like some sort of mental disorder). Then maybe I could neutralize that source and I won't be depressed anymore.
What kind of depressed?
Sad? As in you feel glum, hopeless, or empty?
Or depressed as in zombie like drooling, zoning out for hours on end, nothing gets done, and you are basically low functioning?
The first one, it's your environment. It can also be nutrition and what sort of shit you pump into your system, such as alcohol, or really shitty food, low on the vitamins, and so on.
The second is a problem with your brain. Probably your "electrical system" for lacks of more complicated terms.
Only generalizing. I don't know for sure... the more you think about it, the more you will figure it out...
BPD is such a rush. Reading BPD relationship cases and what those women do when they emote negatively. Makes my eyes gleam while I gaze at the ceiling in awe. It makes playing with fire look safe. My fascination with this state of being makes me question if my amusement from the damage dealt is my own defense mechanism, or is it my sadistic side. None the less this is very interesting, probably because I've experienced a piece of that level of madness.
The world will see her as cute and innocent. Like 99% of abusive woman, this one will be sent to counseling too. Abusive men, or rather, men who are accused of being abusive go straight to jail, before trial. I wouldn't know if the BPD woman is aware of that, but she's highly prone to sending her man to hell that way, through falsehoods.
BPD goes beyond the imagination if you never seen it. If it didn't, then you'd feel the effects of madness with simple though.
So it isn't this?
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Somnolence
Somnolence (or "sleepiness") is a state of near-sleep, a strong desire for sleep, or sleeping for unusually long periods (cf. hypersomnia). It has two distinct meanings, referring both to the usual state preceding falling asleep,[1] and the chronic condition referring to being in that state independent of a circadian rhythm. "Somnolence" is derived from the Latin "somnus" meaning "sleep."
I mean your environment is effecting you in emotional ways, so change your environment to happy things. Gargabe in, garbage out...
Feng Shui is real...
There is always a possibility that it is something else, for sure... but do you believe that if you went on an all expense paid trip to the tropics you would continue to feel hopeless and empty?
Maybe it is chronic condition due to some unbalance in your brain. In which case. I am goint recommend some meds, and for the love of god, if one more person ignores this medication... it is good stuff... it fixes the amygdala...
