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Help! My narcissism keeps me from being a happy sociopath!!

on 6/5/2014
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I'm constantly ruminating on shit that I said to people which will somehow take me down a notch or two in their eyes.

 

Most importantly, I'm constantly TRYING TO HIDE THE FACT that I'm a sociopath, because I don't want people to think that, I want them to think I'm wonderful, beautiful, handsom, talented a genius, compassionate, funny atheletic, 

 

you know the deal.

 

BUT, that makes me fucking anxious because its so much god damn work to keep that front going.

 

Plus, as far as I know people see through it.

 

But, I'm paradoxically attached to this narcissism because I think a big part of me is afraid that once I stop caring what others think, I'll just sink right down and my reputation will be forever fucked and I'll have to relocate and move to a new life (something I've done).

 

The problem THERE, is that its just a drag to try and start over and find new people to con.  

So, what do I do?

 

 

on 6/5/2014
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Help! My narcissism keeps me from being a happy sociopath!!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderline_personality_disorder

on 6/5/2014
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Help! My narcissism keeps me from being a happy sociopath!!

Oh FUCK

 

MING you're totally right.

 

So is this the thing I just have BPD and its that simple?

 

Well anyhow how do I get rid of this thing?

 

AND, if I have BPD does that mean I'm NOT a sociopath???

 

HELP!!

on 6/5/2014
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Help! My narcissism keeps me from being a happy sociopath!!

Aww, i hope you get better and find the answers to your questions!

Maybe you are all those things? Sociopatic narcissist with mood swings!

on 6/6/2014
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Help! My narcissism keeps me from being a happy sociopath!!

"I want them to think I'm wonderful, beautiful, handsom, talented a genius, compassionate, funny atheletic, "

Can sociopaths not be these things? Compassion could at least be faked, but what about the rest of that?

on 6/6/2014
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Help! My narcissism keeps me from being a happy sociopath!!

Do you think you would be able to stop caring about what others think of you, just as easily as a person might flip a light switch?

on 6/6/2014
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Help! My narcissism keeps me from being a happy sociopath!!

^ What Tryp says.

 

OP, can you somehow trace it back to what / when / how made you care so much about what others think of you?  If so, then take it from there & try to undo it.  Sounds like a miserable existence, nobody should live like that.

on 6/6/2014
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Help! My narcissism keeps me from being a happy sociopath!!

"Help! My narcissism keeps me from being a happy sociopath!!"

There's no such thing as a happy sociopath. They have no feelings. Now relax and go watch Dexter. 

on 6/6/2014
Posts: 257
Help! My narcissism keeps me from being a happy sociopath!!

 

by Edvard

 There's no such thing as a happy sociopath. They have no feelings. 

 Sociopathy  (and the whole DSM) lies largely in the eyes of the beholder. 

Everybody has feelings, it's just that some's feelings run against the grain of the current prevailing societal consensus. I might be a blissfully happy individual yet you perceive me as a dangerous zoziopath cuz i aint have no clue wtf Dexter is (not shown on BBC), nor do i play video games.

Yet i have very strong feelings right now towards that last inch of provençal venison salami i left in the larder. 

on 6/6/2014
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Help! My narcissism keeps me from being a happy sociopath!!

I find the term "happy sociopath" amusing and a contradiction. But who the fuck knows, maybe SPs are happy and shit daisies all day long that's just not how I envision them. 

On to more important things, who the hell eats venison salami?  And WTF is a larder? and why did you attribute my words to Edvard? 

and btw: I don't play video games either

 

 

 

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