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I'll keep this short this time.

When I lived in New Mexico I was able to maintain as much solitude as I wanted without needing to explain. Your bringing up that I should be upfront - made me click to how different Texas is. As soon as I moved here 7 years ago, I had to learn to start explaining myself more. Answering more questions about myself. Telling people ahead of time that I keep to myself a lot- and not to take it personal.  They do anyway. Somehow I'd forgotten about the culture shock I went through when I got here. I guess I never pondered how much that affects.

The last year I lived in NM- I went up into the mountains for 3 days by myself and camped in a tent. It was wonderful.  I haven't gone camping once since I moved here. And ever since I started having heart trouble - the kind of hiking I like to do seems daunting now. lol I think I'm beginning to realise the more we sort through this though- that city life in this southern state has not been suitable at all for me. But good call on the camping idea. I'll figure in some time for that.

It's interesting that you should tell me to leave this forum. I have often ducked out of this place for months at a time- and unlike you- I don't lurk here while I'm "gone". I shut this place off completely when I feel it's been taking up toi much of my time. I will go ahead and tell you the reason I stay this time. If there is someone on this forum I know will instigate drama and therefor more stress than I can handle right now- I can blacklist them. And guess what- I don't have to see anything they say or do on this forum- and that includes the forum threads. I've already muted 3 people. I'm good with being here otherwise because I've learned more from coming to sw and sc, about myself and my family - in the few years that I've come around- than a lifetime of being out in the world has taught me. If I weren't here right now- if I had never put up this thread - I would not be getting the type of valuable insight that I'm getting. People here open my mind up and help organise my thoughts in ways I can't get elsewhere. I've blamed this place for adding to my aggression plenty- I even told a regular poster recently that I feel like it only brings out my brat side and I can't seem to help myself. But the truth is- I'm the one who has the power to change that. And that's what I plan to do. If you really believe the place is all bad- you wouldn't be looking in on it still. I'm glad you posted though- it's good to see you. :)

Glad to hear you are doing better these days then,

Take care!

This place has had its moments in the past.

by Rayven

It's interesting that you should tell me to leave this forum. I have often ducked out of this place for months at a time- and unlike you- I don't lurk here while I'm "gone". I shut this place off completely when I feel it's been taking up toi much of my time. I will go ahead and tell you the reason I stay this time. If there is someone on this forum I know will instigate drama and therefor more stress than I can handle right now- I can blacklist them. And guess what- I don't have to see anything they say or do on this forum- and that includes the forum threads. I've already muted 3 people. I'm good with being here otherwise because I've learned more from coming to sw and sc, about myself and my family - in the few years that I've come around- than a lifetime of being out in the world has taught me. If I weren't here right now- if I had never put up this thread - I would not be getting the type of valuable insight that I'm getting. People here open my mind up and help organise my thoughts in ways I can't get elsewhere. I've blamed this place for adding to my aggression plenty- I even told a regular poster recently that I feel like it only brings out my brat side and I can't seem to help myself. But the truth is- I'm the one who has the power to change that. And that's what I plan to do. If you really believe the place is all bad- you wouldn't be looking in on it still. I'm glad you posted though- it's good to see you. :)

 Wow woman. How the hell do you let the forum drama get to you so much. It's hilarious how serious you make all this shit sound.