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It could have been much longer beforehand.

Why? Much of that post was crap, filled with unneeded examples and the like. I agree he left out some information though. Like how long he was an alcoholic for one. Unless I missed that part.

Mostly saying... his story might be that much longer before effort was put into reducing it.

Yeah, it was quite annoying wading through that.

"(everything's relative, right?)"
Jeez, first sentence into the story and you seem to already be bartering with your reader.

So, AA huh? How's all the religious jargon sitting with you?

"highly successful adult male, diagnosed sociopath."
I doubt that, but I'll bite. How did these two things come about (the success and diagnosis).

"I have unusually poor impulse control in most areas of life,  and felt (still feel) a strong compulsion to drink or get high, so I felt talking to others might strengthen my resolve not to do these things."
The Lemming's Cure, Monkey See Monkey Do, the Follower's Approach. I mean whatever works for you, I am just surprised that a "sociopath" would care what others have to say in an AA format.

"How does one list one's fears if one is never afraid?"
You must be afraid of something, even if it's just survival fears. The things in this passage you refer to as "threats" sound like things you might fear (ie Financial Security, maybe even some of that childhood you don't want to talk about)

"I rarely think about fears, and they certainly haven't contributed to my alcoholism."
What would you say is the cause? Also, not thinking about things doesn't just make them go away.

"I have to rack my brain for things I "fear" and all I come up with is a list of things I'd rather not happen because they would cause major hassles or inconvenience."
Status Quo needs create fear in some people, it doesn't sound too crazy to me.

"Resentments are even tougher. I've never born a grudge against anyone; it would never occur to me to do so as no one has ever, or could ever hurt my feelings."
Adorable~

"When people become angry with me, I don't respond with anger but usually lose interest in them- after all, people who are angry are unlikely to be useful to me or enjoyable to be around."
So far it sounds like you practice a good deal of denial, but that's just my conjecture. You deny you have fears, you deny you having resentments and anger, you claim your work is "highly successful", I bet for a while you even denied having a drinking problem.

"People with whom I have had disagreements are quickly and completely forgotten."
Still sounds like denial symptoms~

"Jealousy? Please. When I want something, I take it or purchase its equivalent, or (rarely) destroy it so no one else can have it If it cannot be shared."
I could see how the underlined portion someone could argue roots from Jealousy/Insecurity.

"Insecurity? Don't make me laugh. I'm secure in every way, and if I weren't I would earn or perhaps steal until I was. No big deal."
Cranking that denial up to 11~

Might even be a blind spot for you... that would be unfortunate.

"My sponsor insists my drinking is caused by fears and insecurities and resentments, which simply isn't the case."
Then AA is not for you, that's basically their creed. They analyze your personal baggage, then try to reprogram you toward a God-Driven Purity. There's other groups like AA that take different approaches, maybe you ought to look through some of them?

Either that or your sponsor might see something you're denying about yourself. I'd usually lean toward the former, but your case... makes me wonder.

"I drank because I was bored, because it was pleasurable, because drinking provides a steady stream of casual sex partners (of either gender) and because I have too much time and money money. Mostly, though, because I was bored."
Can't have fun or great sex without alcohol? Do you need alcohol to be less sensitive in the genitalia, or is it more of a self-crippling ego thing?

"I don't doubt that I want to stay sober, but I am beginning to doubt this program has much value for persons like ourselves."
It pushes toward turning you into a sober drone. Other programs actually focus on the alcoholism itself as opposed to this higher power nonsense.

by TheSocio

Why? Much of that post was crap, filled with unneeded examples and the like. I agree he left out some information though. Like how long he was an alcoholic for one. Unless I missed that part.

 Alcoholic drinking for about three years. Heavy drinking for ten or so before that.

12 stepping is shit. If you want to quit, you quit. 

by possum

12 stepping is shit. If you want to quit, you quit. 

Easier said than done, my friend. I can only speak for myself; your experience (if you have any) is likely different.

12 stepping tries to condition out the addiction with Jesus and other people. As you stated, addiction is highly personal. These programs "work" for people who developed their addiction according to a specific pattern. I only know what you wrote here,  but it sounds (personal, non-professional opinion) as if you want to stop but don't fit their pattern.

And, congrats on the sobriety :) 

edit: "These programs" meaning religious based ones. 

Also,  this. Hearing how pathetic everyone else is should help. See if you can top them :)

by Tryptamine

Make stuff up?

I'm trying to drink less (not stop necessarily) myself. There is no real cause for my drinking, it's just something I enjoy a lot. It's harder to slow down when the only reason why you're stopping is for health and behavioral reasons; I could only imagine what it would be like if I told myself "absolutely no more." I think I have some idea of what you're going through. If you feel this program will help you attain your goal, why not just make up stories that sound like everyone else's?

 I think the total abstinence from a substance causes more relapse than learning responsible use.