What do you mean? How did I get this disorder?
It was due to my environment specifically (according to my therapist) because of my early childhood development my mother was a monster so to speak.
by Denise67I get angry when people question me in any way shape or form
That's because you have low self-esteem and, very likely, a large ego to compensate for it. Your anger is a defense mechanism, because you are sensitive to other people's opinions.
Your ego bruises very easily. If it didn't, you wouldn't get so angry when people question you.
Your claim of being a sociopath is questionable.
If you find pretence tiring you're probably not a sociopath. What have people done to you that makes feel this anger towards them? Have you experience alot of rejection? Your posts reek of misfit teen to me. Seems like the real reason you feel the need to hide who you are around people is that you don't like yourself very much, and if you're getting "what the fuck" looks whenever you try to be yourself it means they probably don't like you much either. Why do people who think they're better than you piss you off so much? Is it because you feel inferior? I think you want to be a sociopath because you find it easier/better to think of yourself as bad than to think of yourself as weak. Were you really abused by your parents or is that just something you decided to throw in because it's in keeping with what you read about sociopaths on that wikipedia article you skimmed? If so what did they do to you?