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by Turncoat

"I start hearing voices. People knocking on the door or people shouting my name out. And I tend to be taken in by my own delusions. The whole 2012 scare put me into lock down mode."

Ever try Zinc? My own case of problems like that was apparently Pyroluria. They wanted to put me on a cocktail of medications, but a simple supplement fixed it all (well, most of it anyway).

I cover my B6 issues with Vitamin Water Revive. The potassium helps too.

 Well the meds are working now. I just get exhausted so fast though. I can only do limited work. And yet that makes the depression kick in when I realise how insignificant I am. All I have is my packet of lies lol.

What 2012 scare are you referring to?

Oh, wait, that end of the world bullshit? lol.

I can't believe how many gullible people in the world actually believed that.

Still worth testing if you ask me. Meds are more expensive with side effects. If Zinc does the job, you have something that's just a few bucks you can pick up from the store with relatively few to no side effects. It's also found in certain foods.

by Thrill Kill

What 2012 scare are you referring to?

Oh, wait, that end of the world bullshit? lol.

I can't believe how many gullible people in the world actually believed that.

 Yes. I have became a tool to a few cult leaders numerous times. I really do regret it. But other sociopaths will prey on lesser more stupid sociopaths like myself.

by Turncoat

Still worth testing if you ask me. Meds are more expensive with side effects. If Zinc does the job, you have something that's just a few bucks you can pick up from the store with relatively few to no side effects. It's also found in certain foods.

 Well will go to the health store and pick up some. You do have a point though. I was recently going to do the vegan diet with limited plant protein for a few months and see how it goes. Trouble is I am lazy. I am a qualified chef as well lol.

I feel the same as you but I do not feel empty inside. I am content with my personality as I never connected with anyone as a child. That might have something to do with the way I am today. I enjoy watching people suffer and I talk to basically no one except my therapists, yes I have 2. I hate to ask them for assistance but after 31yrs of using drugs and being incapable to execute a plan of torture and death I now have my mind back. I can think clearly and although I have hurt others in the past and enjoyed it I know if I kill I won't stop. Prison is not a place I'm going so that leaves suicide. So for my own survival I see these therapists to give me tools to stop the constant planning that goes on in my head. I deal with thoughts daily but I am use to them and they usually do not bother me at all unless they become relentless and I am stuck because I can not act. I talk freely here because I genuinely don't care what anyone thinks of me because I like me and that is all that counts.

by Stratagem

I feel the same as you but I do not feel empty inside.

Neither do I.

I am content with my personality as I never connected with anyone as a child.

 Same. Neither did I.

by Stratagem

I feel the same as you but I do not feel empty inside. I am content with my personality as I never connected with anyone as a child. That might have something to do with the way I am today. I enjoy watching people suffer and I talk to basically no one except my therapists, yes I have 2. I hate to ask them for assistance but after 31yrs of using drugs and being incapable to execute a plan of torture and death I now have my mind back. I can think clearly and although I have hurt others in the past and enjoyed it I know if I kill I won't stop. Prison is not a place I'm going so that leaves suicide. So for my own survival I see these therapists to give me tools to stop the constant planning that goes on in my head. I deal with thoughts daily but I am use to them and they usually do not bother me at all unless they become relentless and I am stuck because I can not act. I talk freely here because I genuinely don't care what anyone thinks of me because I like me and that is all that counts.

 I just want to bounce this off you.

I have this constant thought in my head that recites the killing of someone and I get a sadist prompt from one of my personalities to do it. I always ignore this most of the time but on the other hand I have literally strangled people for minor insults.
Its like my equilibrium has been shattered and I want to kill them. Literally!

Do you feel something like this?

There are dozens of doctors queuing up to examine me. I recently told University of Oxford to sod off.I don't want to be no lab rat.

That's a clear trait of NPD.

"sadist prompt from one of my personalities to do it."

What do you mean by this?

I have multiple personalities. When I am near a mood shift I get conflicting thoughts and I struggle to determine the difference between reality and the thoughts I am thinking. They get intense if I acknowledge them. I always resist the most extreme ones but this can lead to panic attacks or minor assaults of people.