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I usually cut down a birch tree.

I use a 5 pound axe.

No gloves.

The blisters make me feel alive.

I leave the cut down tree be for about a year or so.

Then I strip it off the bark and usually make two to three totem poles out of it.

I've been making a circle out of them for the last 7 years.

The circle is centered around a glacial stone I have been throwing varied sized pebbles at with my close friends.

Nothing religious about it, though it has been a cooperative, a rather 'spiritual' and a 'bonding' exercise.

I carve social demons into the totem poles.

My friends help me with the finishing touches.

She really knows how to choose them, huh?

I figured.

Your post when you mentioned a certain intrest caught my eye.

Indeed.

In my opinion it doesn't appear this woman should be any of your business anymore. Let her live the way she wants...she's a big girl. She doesn't need her ex-prince to come to her rescue.

Maybe go play some tennis instead of stalking old love birds. (I'm being serious)

You've been here for a while.

I 'hoped' that you would understand that certain releases require certain sacrifices, and certain sacrifices both underestimate and overestimate certain releases.

It's about what is left afterwards, that makes the art worthwhile to behold.

My anger never lasts long, so I rarely ever need to find an alternative release. Only once do I remember getting so angry that I had to go and stab something.

Aggression, on the other hand, is something I have issues with. Beating up a boxing bag or working out until I'm exhausted usually works for me, temporarily at least. It doesn't really take away the feeling, but it does reduce it to some degree.

I see. This is situation is more complicated than I had wished.

 The person this child decided to use as a punching bag was at one point, everything to me. I grew up with this person and have held a friendship with her since elementary school. Even after our fallout, we still maintained a mutalistic relationship. Me & her find eachother the most trustworthy in our separate friend circles. This is no longer about a lost limerance, I've put that behind me a while ago. This act is a assault on my childhood friend.

I'm enraged at him for striking her.

I'm angry that she was stupid enough to not see this coming.

I'm infuriated by the fact that as soon as I decide to stop watching over her something like this happens.

I've sought alternatives, but to no avail. It only postpones how I feel. It is clear that one of these three is going to face direct consequences.  Might as well be him.

The way I see it (mind you, it is a skewed point of view as it relates to my experience only), you have three options:

A) Be the Master/Shepherd and tell her how to defend herself

B) Be the Mentor/Guide and teach her how to defend herself

C) Be a friend and defend her in her stead

No matter how much personal attachment you resolve to invest into the affair, you will still be detached in the end and only anger will direct you.

Maybe I should have worded my topic like this, many less retards crying for attention and many more giving actual answers here >.>

As mentioned by someone else, video games. Play a long game, one with an absorbing plot. I find after playing one of those I begin to become in a somewhat high state- '"worldly problems don't matter anyway, Lara is so sexy lets focus on becoming Lara Croft" or a fantasy where you end up pondering that world's logic. But you get the point.

The problem with that is you can't just access video games from anywhere.

So I've downloaded YuGiOh games on my iPhone >.>