"So... I'm like your former target? Howso?"
Back then where I was at mentally my answer to fixing the stalking issue wasnt to stop, but to switch to an easier target. When you're analyzing people, analytical people stand out. You never made it to serious consideration, but to find out more about you for potentially romantic purposes was definitley a part of the reason I made the thread in the first place. I believe the next month is when I actually started the process of cutting cold turkey with stalking altogether and stopped lurking posts/entered chat.
I'd like to really emphasize that stubborn imagination and delusion. If i'm suffering essentially a withdrawal of sorts due to periods of abandoning stalking in hopes of recovery I wasnt in a good place. An already massively delusional person is on edge, looking for relief. I idolized and saw a below average girl as the perfect standard of beauty/personality for years. I dont think its that far of a stretch when I say I overlooked your voice