uh yes, I have had this experience quite often and I've dealt with it both ways - lol - I've snapped (never turns out well - I went to jail)
And now I consciously monitor it. Work out just about everyday so stress doesn't build and I take ADs. I can usually feel it with enough notice that I excuse myself from the situation. For me rage doesn't come as suddenly as it used to and I can feel things start to build beforehand so I stay home on weekends if I feel edgy, and I avoid really drunk people. lol
How did you deal with it today?
This was sudden only because it had to do with my father, was not something I should have been informed about in the first place, and so there was no way to have seen it coming. I did better than I thought I would, but I was very shitty to most of my clients. Now it's building back on itself because now I'm home and can process everything again.
I rarely ever lose my temper so bad I become enraged.
My mother got me real mad once. So mad I wanted to stab the fuck out of her. Instead, I walked away and stabbed something else. I don't think that counts as rage though because I didn't lose control.
I've acted on impulse a few times and lashed out violently at other people I knew. I didn't even think. I just acted.
I remember a dream I had once where I became so enraged that I stabbed a guy to death. I kept stabbing him and stabbing him till I was so exhausted I couldn't stab him any longer. Something he said in the dream triggered my rage.
I had that a lot worse when I was younger. I still get it occasionally , but have a better handle on it now.
It used to come on like a head full of ice, and my senses would all tunnel vision and quieten down, and I could barely hear anything.
Peoples voices would be totally ignored , and anyone who tried to stop me , or got in my way got just as much of it as the person/situation who started it.
Even getting hit, or punched or attacked , I wouldnt feel a thing, and would just continue in rage-mode until the person/situation was either busted or defused in some way.
I almost cut someones fingers off by kicking a door shut, and the person had nothing to do with why I was so angry...that incident made me pause and consider the consequences of what would happen if I didnt get it in check a bit.
I began using breathing techniques, to slow it down before it became too loud and unable to halt, and found that after a while I could actually feel the cotton-wool effect of my brain going quiet, which in turn enabled me to get more proficient at lessening its effects.
It still comes up, if Im provoked a certain way, or have something/someone unexpectedly turn hostile.
Its like an instant "FUCK Y'ALL"..going off.
Sorry to hear that. All I can suggest is going to the gym to blow off some steam or beating the shit out of your neighbour.
Seriously, I don't know if you're male or female, not that it matters, but if you can talk whatever it is out with someone you trust that will prob help. I don't want to be condescending - perspective helps. Or try that breathing stuff Lycan was talking about. Sorry you're having a shit day.
I've gotten a lot better at controlling it with age too.
Nowadays I see it coming and I excuse myself. No matter what situation I'm in, if i'm in the middle of a meeting or an argument or whatever, I walk away, b/c nobody is worth it. I used to burn out, I would feel completely washed out once that it was over, exhausted.
Now i work out, the worse it is the harder i push. also, i don't know where you live, but if you're near the water, go there and walk it off. if it takes you hours, then let it be hours. i listen to music, walk for miles and smoke like a chimney until it's over. somehow poisoning myself helps, no idea why.
hope that you're feeling better already!