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Apologies to Silkthread
My step father is a great man (emotionally distant) but i've never known a greater human than him. he single handedly supported me, my mother and two older siblings... he filled a position than others abandoned, he chose to allow my mother to take her own path and he stayed with her, when the walls of her reality began to crumble. I dont fault him for that, I admire him for it. he does what he believes is right.
what are you getting at sugar?
Thanks for the sentiments Emily, I do appreciate. I dont really give a shit about my brother to tell you the truth, he is dead so why should I? And although I dont usually like to air my dirty washing in public, you are welcome to start a new thread were I could divulge a little bit into my virulent backround. Emily, I have enough shit for 100 life times, never mind one. But know that I am only willing to share just enough. Deal?
I do not wish to polute silk's thread (pun intended) with my bile.
Peace.
i don't usually know what i'm getting at until i get there.
that's not choosing to allow her to take her own path, it's allowing her to lose touch with reality. i have a friend who is a schizo narc(?) and sometimes i want to slit her throat.
i'm curious whether you'd want to have children after everything you've experienced
That IS letting her take her own path... for hundreds of thousands of years our species has endured schizophrenia, it isnt new to us, but in the past it was labeled differently, many mistook them for prophets or seers or medicinemen... it is one of the springs with which our perceptions of reality sprang...
reality is perception sugar... whether it falls into the norm or not...
I can tell you don't understand much about schizophrenia or what most of the prescibed meds do for it.
Most antipsychotics are in the catagory of SSRIs which have a numbing, narcotic effect on the patient... these meds make the patient "tolerable" and "dosile".... i know if i were schizophrenic, i wouldnt want these states of mind forced upon me...
good for you that you've known someone who is a schizo narc... i lived with one for several years... i too wanted to slit her throat at times... more than anything i wanted her to be "normal" but medicating her would have been for my benifit, not hers... she chose the voices... that was her path, and its no ones right but hers to choose that path...regardless of howmuch i dislike it.
and yes, i'm going to have children. life is an ugly thing regardless of your reality... it harsh and it is about survival... but to stop because of that... is nothing but weakness that deserves to fade...
you're right, i don't understand or know much about it, but i caught my friends based on very little (lol, holding the joint out for me way to far to reach, word salad, blank face). the narc part made it extremely difficult to know when to give her the death stare and when to help her out. this is why i was curious as to whether your mother was a narc too. unimaginably awful mix.
anyway your mother's lucky she had your stepfather around, whether or not he made her take meds. my friend is unfortunately shacked up with a psychopath and he does some pretty terrible things to her.