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 Animals: I guess I like them because they are pretty cute. They are. I also guess, thinking about it now, they are pretty honest. They want something, they work it to get it. (Cats. I am talking about cats. Dogs are damn awesome too.) I have always had pets, so maybe it is just as simple as I have always had pets and I find comfort there. They aren't assholes. They have instincts and impulses, but that's just them being honest. I don't know. I just typed a bunch of sentences, but really, I don't know. Sure, they don't plot and scheme against me, but that doesn't feel like a real reason for me anyway. They make me happy.

Never cooked one, but some animals are quite large...so, that would be like days of prep and...well, do you braise them? Grill?

Until some deeper emotion makes an appearance.

Then a lot of hurt ensues (not specifically the physical one).

Oh sweetie,

physical pleasure is just a means to an end.

But that doesn't mean that it can not be turned into an overwhelmingly pleasant experiene for you.

I understand your point of view rather well.

I have not ever found a better description of that surrender and taking charge, as being lost in the moment.

Edit: Nermind.

 Seriously? if you did...awesome. And, except for the people, I do like my job. :)

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Sex isn't really about thinking so much as behavior.

Sex where you're left having to think too much is awkward, boring, or weird as hell. Sex where you can get lost to the sensations is a whole different creature.

Yay paraphelias for illustrating that difference to me.

 Well, no...I knew people were helpless idiots. I think now is a good time to point out: only child. I think it matters. I love figuring things out for myself. (Maybe I dont ever have to owe someone for showing me? Yeah, that's part of it too.)

But, damn...some of them are soooooo much more ignorant than I I would think anyone would find acceptable. Ignorant defined as: I would do it, but you do it and Im going to complain the whole time. 

You're getting there.

It's all about imagination and how you employ it.

Sometimes you have to destroy a part of yourself (sacrifice), in order to create a mutual sense of connectiveness (sharing).

It's a shit load of hard manual and psychological labor, but in the end it can be more worthwhile than all the bullshit other people try to sell to you as fulfillment.

Almost never trust a salesman.

Almost always trust a teacher.

The first can not be trusted, because they don't care about you, yet they want something from you at your own cost.

The second should be trusted, because they might not care about you, yet they have to give something to you at heir own cost.

Still, it's a very ambiguous distinction at best and only a guideline.

Sometimes salesmen act as teachers and teachers act as salesmen.

It is best to acquaint yourself with what is true to the best of the current empirological knowledge and be cynical about everything on your own.

 Yes, I believe I am, though I haven't been diagnosed.