A grown adult.
A functional, highly educated adult. Employed. No criminal record, no history of violence. (Nor does violence seem likely really.)
I like animals...in fact, I like them better than people.
I work with people, helping people (not medicine). I resent, but understand, that I have to appear to be happy to help, enthusiastic about it even...there's something in it for me. That is called a paycheck. It is utterly exhausting.
I found it easier to play along b/c I was had someone I "trusted." I never told her how I have been learning how to "fake it" since I was pre-teen. I never told her how much I hated it. She loved me. I feel I loved her. There was no point in having the conversation. I am fully aware that I knew what to do and say to make her happy and I wanted to and I feel like it was more than just playing along. Everyone else, no...I know what they want to hear and see...I will either just lie or actually make myself do some shit, but like I said...grown adult. I have more freedom and resources to skip it all now. I feel the backlash. (You are not a genius if you see this is family related...it looks obvious to me. It is about family. She=mom. I did really like her....quite a bit.)
Consider this a tease and please just ask something, I don't get what to say here.
Also, if so fascinating...I have to step out and will finish up in about an hour...like less.
I know how to manipulate, I do it regularly, it works. Its just what I do. There is a place to start.