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Not much of a sadist if you feel guilty. It seems more like you're just some hurt girl who disperses responsibility by preying off some poor nice schmuck. It's not clever or strong, it's just pathetic.

 The real reason? Because I can. Plain and simple.

No dealing with trauma from my own life...I have a good life....a husband who adores me, a teenager who is smart, well behaved with friends, etc and will be moving on with his life soon.  I was adopted when I was a baby and was not abused.

I've led a decent life and have a good life now. I do it because I can plain and simple.

I don't disagree, it's just if that's all there is, it's pretty pathetic reasoning.

 Go through with your "dying" and then say "ha ha jokes on you."

So you're just a parasitic creep. You don't have the guts to pull something like this off in your real life, so you confine it to the internet where it's safe.

That's got to be an outlet of some kind.

Is your husband not a fan of sadistic tendancies, and because of that you need this online sad sap to proxy that thirst, that itch?

by Chi

So you're just a parasitic creep. You don't have the guts to pull something like this off in your real life, so you confine it to the internet where it's safe.

 I don't think there's any doubt about that. Does it matter what any of us think of her? No. All we can do is maybe help bring it to a close. 

 A sadist gets off on hurting people....be it emotional abuse or physical... hurting him...destroying him gets me off. And it has in the last year. It's the only reason I keep going with this.

So I have a tiny bit of guilt...like .05%.   Studies show that sadists have the ability to empathize with their victims...they understand pain...they can feel guilt, etc.  Sociopaths and psychopaths have no emotions...which is what I've taken issue with in saying I'm a sociopath. I have some feelings. I can be cold and calculating and everything else associated with a sociopath but the emotions (at times).

I have no medical training or knowledge beyond what I've been able to scrounge up online and  that I've been able to fool someone who has gone through 8 plusyears of this so far gets me off....gives me a great sense of power.

Power over him...power to make him feel whatever I want him to feel. The power knowing I've destroyed something he worked 8 years for and can't ever get it back. Power...thats what trips my trigger.

 Actually you don't know me very well. I can and do and have done things like this in real life.

I met my first husband because I was "dying". I've been pregnant a few times (not really) and miscarried simply because I could inflict the emotional damage on him. And that I did. 5 years of constantly fucking with him. I left him an emotional ruin.

My current husband met me under totally false pretenses...more of me manipulating someone's emotions because I could. I still do it almost daily.

Don't assume you know me by a few posts...because you don't :)

by Turncoat

That's got to be an outlet of some kind.

Is your husband not a fan of sadistic tendancies, and because of that you need this online sad sap to proxy that thirst, that itch?

 Nope. I manipulate my husband daily...it's how I met him afterall...totally false pretenses...I get plenty of fill in my daily life...try again.