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Pyroluria, manifesting Schizophrenia, OCD, and OCPD when my Zinc count is low.
Insomnia, from further back than I can remember.
Algolagnia.
Ex-PTSD.
Blunted Affect, or something like it anyway. I only really feel fear and anger for emotions, and even those I've put in check with enough conditioning to desensitize them (anger makes me laugh compulsively and get sort of dizzy, not a fan).

Salesman.

 Clearly you need more vitamins.  In other news, what have you done about your insomnia?

 Google pyoluria . 

Clearly more vitamins would potentially fuck him up.

Thats quite a balancing act you have to endure Turncoat.

Currently? Smoking seems to allow me to sleep once a day, but it can take forever for that sleepy window of opporitunity to come about. If I miss it, I'm back at square one.

Drinking makes it easy mode, but hangovers make it a bit much to try to keep up as an every day thing.

As I mentioned before, sleeping medicines just mess with my head instead of putting me to sleep (what ones I've tried anyway). I've tried exercising to the point of physical exhaustion, reading or watching boring things, forcing myself to go to bed when I'm not tired with no stimulus, ocean sounds/whale calls/nature sounds, so many things. Too much going on up there to rest when I'd like to, even when I'm tired as hell.

That sounds like it might suck...

I can shut myself down on demand and sleep like a BOSS.

No kidding, made school more difficult than it had to be, and the dark rings under my eyes get a lot of comments.

The worst thing is just having that much time to think.

Ask for some stimulant medication during the day.  It's counter intuitive and has some positive results,

Don't stimulants just make insomnia worse? Are you proposing by being on an upper at the start of my day, I'd be exhausted enough at the end of the day to crash?

 same. it's improved as i've become less psychotic though.