You've otherwise received mixed sentiments, ranging from sympathy of varying degrees of authenticity to "why are we supposed to care?" edgelording to people like Spatial saying it's shameful before comparing you to the likes of Sinister.
I think in that thought process I was trying to make it final, I thought my mental space was calm and it just made sense to kill myself.
Fugue states can be some of the worst. How calm or serene it otherwise feels tends to have a duration.
I thought that many of my attempts were right too, still kind of do, but the urge to live seems to be more of a reflex than anything else.
I couldn't explain it to my sister so I tried explaining it to you guys but as you can see- it didn't work out. Tony can think it's shameful as much as he wants, I agree a little bit since I feel ashamed I couldn't do it as well
He finds doing it shameful, while people like us find failing to suicide to be the shameful thing (when it comes to ourselves). It's not really the same thing.
Sinister was a child and I can only hope she found peace in life or in death.
Yeah... her story was a sad one. It's one thing when someone's feelings have them harm another, but when it's self-inflicted it's of a very different nature.
I still find it creepy that Scientology promotes Anger more than Sadness (among other weird implications).
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