Unfortunately I'm still alive. For those of you that reached out and I haven't yet answered pms/dms- thank you for reaching out, that was kind.
For Delora that felt it was necessary to capitalize on my suicide attempt as a way to get attention by any means possible: stay fucked but I'm glad you were able to finally find your ovaries and say what's really been on your mind.
For Bo that brought up I was a homewrecker: I was in a relationship with a man that had separated from his wife and lived in different houses. He had weekend custody and he and I got together for a short while and his wife and I were friendly with each other even while the documents were being prepared for the divorce. It was amicable.
The only marriages I wrecked were ones where the husband was blatantly cheating on his wife and I brought attention to it and the time my best friends husband tried to get me into bed. Alas i do not think these qualify as actual homewrecking. It seems like your wife enjoys lying to you and is an attempted relationship wrecker herself having had attempted to wreck Xadems' and Scarletts relationship by sending him nudes.
I've largely been suicidal for most of my life, I'm not sure where this idea that I wasn't is coming from. I don't think I'll be participating as much as I'm trying to work on my own debilitating mental health.
So, sorry for worrying those of you that cared. I know what I did was selfish and I'm sorry for having a dramatic exit.