see? the truth lies in the middle
You really should read what I wrote aubrieta. I’m right about everything ;)
youre not a massochist, you contradicted your own self talking about yourself in this very same thread.
You said you run from somefbing when it feels bad.
This is is a common BPD behavior and contrary to masochistic behavior.
Uoure using masochism to cover your shame. You’re using obsession to elude of escape inner reflection. Deflection.
Everhthing youre doing is classic signs of an individual who can’t stop running from themselves, is in denial, and destroys themselves in the process.
Stop already, it’s getting annoying to watch.
Low functioning individuals are so annoying sometimes, don’t even get me started.
Aubrieta, you contradicted yourself. You said you run from things that feel bad, and yet you like things that feel bad.
You’re not a masochist you dope, please listen to someone other than yourself for once. You look incredibly stupid to everyone else on this site because you refuse to do so, you exist in this echo chamber of incessant moronic babble, going around and around and not getting anywhere.
Please, for the love of god. Let go of all the bull shit, and research borderline personality disorder. And seek out help and, when that help doesn’t work, keep seeking it. And I don’ tmean Just therapists. I mean truly, seek help for yourself through everything you do. I mean this in a more, meditative and intuitive sense.
Healing comes from everything you do, recovery is a life style- not just a once a week therapy section, or an article you read for 25 minutes.
For the love of god, if it were that easy, then why would we have so many sick individuals. We’d be passing out a cure like candy.
If you can just lower the walls and the bars for a moment, and let go of the shit holding you back in your own mind for two goddam seconds. Let go of reservations. Accept, things. Accept your shame. Accept whats hard and what you run from. All of it.
Then you could truly come out a stronger person, but until then, you will always be weak, prolonging your own suffering, while you circle the drain destroying yourself, in a humiliating fashion- because you look insane to everyone else while you do it.
This obsession, is just sad. You’ve done it repeadetly now. You look crazier than med, beacuse at least med didn’t do it consecutively, repeadetly. Stop repeating your mistakes. Do you have no ability to reflect on yourself? No emotional intelligence? No self awareness?
Wake up. And stop this bull shit I’m getting so tired of it, you have to be tired of it too.
Unfortunately no one wants to change their shit until it gets too uncomfortable to bear, so I suppose you have a few more months till you hit rock bottom. You’re no more low functioning than Tryp- the person you make fun of all the time. Until you get your shit together. His addiction to alcohol is no different than your addiction to fantasizing about men who don’t care about you.
Let go of the shame. Let go of all of it. Just, give it up. End scene. The show is OVER go hoME. THIS DRAMA HAS GONE ON TOO LONG AUBRIETA. WAKE UP. WAKE. THE FUCK. UP.
I’ve been trying to help you, I show you nothing but kindness, I say I wanna be your friend and shit.
And still you treat me this way.
I know if I had a dick, you’d be eating up every word I said like it was the gospel written by god himself.
If that were the case with you being a shlong monster, she'd be my thrall by now.
It's not about genitalia beyond attraction, she turns away my testimonies too.