Anyway I am ok with being masochistic now that the original disgust has worn off, ill see if in the future i continue to feel grossed out by these new behavioral changes in myself
most likely not as I tend to adapt and love myself no matter what pretty quickly
If that's what you need to think to feel better right now.
Alright tc you asked for it im done taking you seriously
You basically have been for a bit now.
Anyway I am ok with being masochistic now that the original disgust has worn off, ill see if in the future i continue to feel grossed out by these new behavioral changes in myself
most likely not as I tend to adapt and love myself no matter what pretty quickly
Admit you’re ashamed of what “love” aka, obsession (the current markings of your borderline personality disorder) is turning you into
and you will be set free from it.
Just own it. J am ashamed.
Boom, has no power over you anymore.
Because youll stop running from the things you can’t face- you’ll stop running from the shame and you’ll stop running from the obsession, and you will truly be able to step out of denial and get help.
Just admit, I am ashamed of this. And that’s *okay*
its *okay*
accept yourself. Own it. Take responsibility.
Accept it.
btw, TC, the first masochistic thing I did was admit I was mentally ill after Tryptamine accused me of it and I was arguing strongly that I wasnt, up until then I had always argued with everyone who called me crazy because it felt disrespectful to me
but then a couple hours later I made a thread admitting to being mentally ill
and now a lot of different things that used to feel disrespectful to me I am accepting those disrespectful evaluations and not even arguing with
except for the ones that are outright lies, for example, you telling me I'm not becoming masochistic when deep down i know the truth is that I am becoming masochistic. those I will stll argue, because they are deep inner truths
a deep inner truth of mine that has disappeared is the need to feel respected at all times no matter what and if I'm disrespected I need to fight it and disprove it. thats gone now. hence I am now masochistic
ty for not arguing with me lol
You know I'm here when my kind of voice is desired.
