ugh Pseud's snapchatting me rn about wanting me to go to the casino and then on holiday with him if he wins
I dont want to go to the casino or on holiday i want to stay snuggled up in my room on my laptop lol or downstairs on the couch
Some casinos have nice hotels and other things to do besides gambling.
he was the closest thing I ever had to true love irl, it lasted about 3 years on and off frequent sex and adventures and attempts at living together and all of that. lots of drama and lots of fun. he proposed but every time we got too close to being fully committed to each other we would break up
Why would it break apart?
I would push away
with online relationships and friendships, the ones i have now are partly based on the fact that im unavailable and its accepted but like, all the relationships i used to have with people irl that I am actually compatible with in an irl friendship or relationship are destroyed i pushed them all away and refuse to form irl friendships or relationships anymore
he wasnt my only ltr but he was my longest and most "serious"
When's the last time you bothered with irl relationships?
#Lesson learned: say yes when proposed to.
#Lesson learned: Don't say yes too quickly.
i know I should have
I know I shouldn't have, or rather the mistakes that followed were a learning experience.
Hey turncoat. Just curious is this supposed to be a reframing of what I said for me , or are you speaking for yourself:)
#Lesson learned: say yes when proposed to.
#Lesson learned: Don't say yes too quickly.
i know I should have
I know I shouldn't have, or rather the mistakes that followed were a learning experience.
Hey turncoat. Just curious is this supposed to be a reframing of what I said for me , or are you speaking for yourself:)
Myself, as a relative comparison.
he was the closest thing I ever had to true love irl, it lasted about 3 years on and off frequent sex and adventures and attempts at living together and all of that. lots of drama and lots of fun. he proposed but every time we got too close to being fully committed to each other we would break up
Why would it break apart?
I would push away
with online relationships and friendships, the ones i have now are partly based on the fact that im unavailable and its accepted but like, all the relationships i used to have with people irl that I am actually compatible with in an irl friendship or relationship are destroyed i pushed them all away and refuse to form irl friendships or relationships anymore
he wasnt my only ltr but he was my longest and most "serious"
When's the last time you bothered with irl relationships?
umm so this ex and I briefly were back together for a few days like 2 months ago? and then I broke up with him again lol
ugh Pseud's snapchatting me rn about wanting me to go to the casino and then on holiday with him if he wins
I dont want to go to the casino or on holiday i want to stay snuggled up in my room on my laptop lol or downstairs on the couchSome casinos have nice hotels and other things to do besides gambling.
ya he is so sweet. but im just not going to go be with him. i don't want to travel by myself anymore and I dont want to be around people I want to be alone except for seeing my family occasionally
i was much for functional socially ironically enough when I was a depressed mood swinging mess drinking and using drugs and smoking weed and actually trying to stay employed because during that time I had hope that I would be able to beat whatever mental disorder i have but i didnt and then it consumed me
are you happy with how you are turq
happiest and most peaceful ive ever been in my life 100% honestly. i know a lot of ppl don't understand and think that i'm not happy, because i act like a bitch sometimes, but im actually really happy lol. everything has a price tho
